Things To Do Before Going Back To Hong Kong...

1. Satisfy all Malaysian food cravings
2. Buying snacks to bring back to HK

3. Packing

4. Buy stuff for myself (eg : LBD, fedora and etc etc)

5. Seeing everyone for one last time

6. Get over turning 20

- Seriously my mum's not helping she constantly reminds me how close I am to turning 30 >.<

Thanks mum ....

7. Persuade my dad to let me go clubbing ... to zouk hopefully...

So little time so much to do...

On a brighter note my internship at kpmg is ending soon and i knew that

I would be on the cover of vogue ;)

If I Told You....

I can't figure out your game

Would you stop dead in your tracks

Turn around and smile

and explain the game that your playing

or would you just turn around and smile

with your pokerface and pretend

that there is no game...

Subconcious

Hey All

Dreams are a glimpse of our subconcious

I had a very weird dream last night. I woke up feeling strangely emo. I couldn't remember the dream that much but I remember seeing three pairs of black scissors in a mug on my working desk.

I'm at work now and there's no scissor but just a mug on my desk... I think i might be going insane from the lack of rest i'm getting.

But they say that the dreams that we remember are the dreams that mean something. I've googled and apparently it means that my focus is being divided into too many different directions...Well i guess that is partially true given what has happened the night before...

Either way, Its going to be alright ;)

Wrong Place? Wrong Time?

The problem with making a decision is that you'll never know which decision is the right one until it all plays out right until the end of the whole thing which is the final outcome...

Unfortunately right now... I feel like I've made the wrong choice... for some reason I refuse to wait until the end of the whole entire thing... I'm just very sick and tired of it all... I'm just so restless for it to all end cause I have for some reason made up my mind about it already...

People keep on telling me that I'm just at the wrong place at the wrong time... but hey what do I know about this area in life after all i'm not yet an adult...

" trust me ... it will work out" thats what you always say and thats what you only always say...

Your words are merely words.. and thats all their always be to me...

Nasi Lemak Revelations...

After being at home for about a month now
I just realise I haven't eaten that one thing that 've been craving for when I was in hk
My favourite Nasi Lemak Cikgu

*insert nasi lemak picture here*

I don't know why i never suggested that to my parents...
I should have they would have moved mountains to get me some
Cause they want me to gain weight :)

I realise that I always say that i want to do something but i never got around to doing it
cause most of the time I forget about it or i keep delaying it cause i know i can do it tomorrow...

oh well

My short break is up time to get back to work :)

The Tiny Things...

I have long heard that we should be happy with everything no matter how tiny that thing is....

Well this post is about how one of the tiny things in life makes me happy :)

I have been interning since 1st of June only to realise that the life of an auditor is rather boring, static and dry. I've spoken to my parents about it but only to be adviced to give it another shot and to take it with an open mind .

I won't say that I don't find it boring anymore I still do but something that involves auditing made me happy recently :)

Yesterday I did a FAR report for the company I was assigned to... It was tedious and dry and boring... did I mention boring ? but the happy part was that I got to put my name on the report :)

Some of you may think that its something thats not worth being so excited about but i like being recognized for my work esspecially when a lot of sweat has been put into it... So hence, being able to put my name and my initials on the report is like a small recognition of all my effort which involves going through all the documents to find supportings for the figures and carrying a lot and lots of files up and down the stairs with high heels and doing overtime for the past week....

Hehe now you know why I have a smile on my face :)

I Would Have Shed Tears

I read an article today about how neither north korea and south korea are not ready to go to war despite the fact that both sides hate each others guts...

It made me think about what would happen if the people i knew who underwent army or national service were suddenly called up for war...

I shudder at the thought really.... but then later realise how silly it was to think of such thoughts... :)

Back to work...

Enjoying Me Time...

Throughout our entire lives some of us are not that fortunate to lead life the way we want too while others are lucky enough to be given the chance to do so...

I've been lucky enough to have gotten the chance to lead my life the way I want partially... with a little persuassion and some suggestions from my family and friends about how I should lead my life though...

But recently I have come to realise that the life I am leading is not something I actually really really really want anymore... I still want it but not as badly as Ive wanted it before... why? because sometimes all the work that goes into getting it is not exactly the most enjoyable thing to do... not only is it enjoyable but involves a lot of sacrifices... my happiness and health being some of the things that i have had to sacrifice the pass few years...

So what do I want now? I just want to be able to enjoy the process of getting the life I want...

Starting with enjoying what could be my first and last summer holiday.
Thus, I'm currently in Singapore trying to relax and enjoy my summer as much as possible as I probably won't be able to for the next few years and also cause I haven't acually got a chance to fully enjoy it ... Other than that I also wanted some me time... Away from the daily hassles and stresses of life... Just for a tiny bit :)

Its Been A Year...

I didn't realize what the date of today was until i looked at my hp today... and it shocked me as the thoughts of last year started playing in front of me again...

A year ago I received a phone call from australia... I felt a jolt of excitement but at the next moment i was in despair...

The events of that time hurt so much.... but i can say that now they don't mean anything to me...

Its been a year... and a lot has happened

a lot has changed...

Angels and Caffeine...

I won't lie

I am overwhelmed with the amount of work that I'm receiving

I won't lie

and say that I did not feel like jumping down

I won't lie

and say that I'm alright

I'll just say for now that with an angel looking out for me from high above

and with lots of caffeine ...

I think I can pull through...

You Peculiar Little Thing ...

A few weeks ago, during easter, i went back to cheng chau...

See how beautiful it is :) hehe ... more photo's in fb....

I went to ikea the other day and i thought i would get my meatballs in a plate....

And then last Saturday , I went to Madame Tussand's to hang with the likes of....

and i was shocked to find out that I was taller than Jay Chao :)

and then i realized how short i was after that....

haha off to bed

nighty night

Trying To Wrap My Head Around It...

My finals are in a month...

I have to :

1. Study for all of my 5 papers...

2. Finish all my Projects

3. Do all my Presentations

4. Get an internship

5. Do my visa

6. Pack my room for the summer...

It sounds so easy right now.... until you look at my planner ...

Sighs... baby i miss you....

Past Episodes...

Today the topic Christianity came up again...

and all I have to say is that i still have issues with it...

Even though time has passed and I'm currently seeing someone else...

I still can't help but feel a stab or a sudden surge of anger whenever that topic comes up...

From time to time again even though its almost been a year ...

It just keeps coming back...

I know that i have to let it go but i still feel the bitterness every now and then ...

sighs...

only time can help i suppose...

maybe someday somehow when i look back at that point in time i'll be able to just shake it off...

Often At Times...

Often at times...

being in Hk

takes away your soul cause all you ever do is work work work ....

You work your way in university

You work your way in hall if not people say your slacking

You work your way even when your walking (cause if you walk to slow you get pushed around)

You work your way for internships (trying to stand out is not easy)

You work to make yourself happy (only for workaholics)

and when you finally want to relax something new pops up in your planner, email, blackberry or ipod touch..

You then get out of bed and start working again...

And while your working you would often at times meet obstacles... some that you'll be able to conquer some that you won't be able to handle ...

and it is during those times that i need my boo boo bear...

where did you go boo boo bear?

The Ass Has Spoken

Therefore, I shall Write me Bloggy....

I'm FUCKING ANNOYED .....

Last night my room door spoiled therefore i didn't close it cause i feared that i would lock myself in.... so i went down to the office to inform then and they said alright we will send someone up to fix it in the morning...

So i expected them to inform me via email or phone call... but little did i know...

The next morning 3 unknown alien man came into my room with hammers and a drill...

they told me to continue sleeping but how on earth do you expect me to continue sleeping if your using hammers and drills to fix my door...

and sleep with 3 alien guys in my room...

the best part was that you guys were arguing in cantonese about who fixed the door wrongly yesterday and how to fix the door...

Seriously... geeezzz

Random Mumblings...

I hope you're doing fine wherever you are...

if you want me to stay,

say you want me to stay

baby stop playing around with me

there ain't no time to play

if you want me to stay

baby you got to show me

Dancing is taking a toll on my back ... ( a lot of arching)

Attempting to dance hip hop is challenging especially since i have no background in it...

Your like a constant melody stuck in my head

Sometimes I wonder what happened

I hope I'll pull through

I still have two midterms daummmm

I wish I had my mummy here to take care of me...

I want to buy that Guess shoe...

I want to go and lie on the beach and read Jane Austen

I want to go to that book cafe that I saw the other day

I feel like eating

I need to put on weight x)

The End Of My Reading Week...

I had quite a week to be honest... Lets start with the highlights...

First Highlight : Cheng Chau Island

Cheng chau was amazing :) The air was cleaner than back home and HK... I loved the beach even though it was cold but you guys know that I'll still enter the water... I was good ok i only entered until my knees ... hehe

The seafood was nice too :) not as nice as kl but it was rather fresh :) hehe...

I cycled up the mountain and hiked up some more and I managed to get a shot of the island or at least the developed part of the island (please refer to the picture above) It was so much fun...

except for the part where geneva and I got lost for a bit and got chased by two dogs... x) all part of being a natalie... hehe

Hightlight 2 : Macao Trip

Even though i had to hiked up a lot of stairs and do the cultural exchange with the university of macao ... I still had fun :) want to know why ? cause i got a chance to go to the venetian with my friends and gamble :) lol

Lisa was so funny :) we saw her sitting on one of the slot machines just staring at it and then we tapped her and she said...

L : I don't know what happened I think I just lost Hk$75

N : how?

L : I don't know i just kept on putting money in...

N : x)

hehe... i got my turn on the slot machine :) so happy which was well kind of my goal ... haha just wanted to try the slot machines... hehe

but I must say being in the casino reminded me of some people... I wandered pass the poker table and I remembered zn, arnold, syn giap, , jason and so on... it wasn't until I saw the mahjong table then I started scream OMG Calvin !!!... i later had to explain to my other friends who thought that the excitement of being in a casino had gotten to my head ... haha

Hightlight 3 : Finally getting enough sleep

I must say i miss sleeping... hehe it was good to be able to sleep yesterday ... finally a day where i didn't had to wake up for anything :) hehe... my hols have been packed as you can see from the previous post... ok i got to get back to my corporate finance...

see you guys

Reading Week Is Indeed A Reading Week

Hello

Sorry for the no updates... been busy ...

So what has happened so far? i went back home to celebrate Chinese New Year... :) CNY was really different this time around.. i guess it comes with studying abroad... I don't know why x) i guess its cause i missed home, family and my malaysian food... and this time around i was actually looking forward to seeing all my relatives... haha i even waked up at 4am in the morning to order to reach kl in time for the reunion dinner and lugged my heavy luggage with my tiny hands to the airport... i guess it shows how much i miss my family ... unfortunately i keep on forgetting to take a full family picture with them... aaaaa i shall remember next year...

and in the middle of it all i got my ielst's results from the british council

And then i woke up at 4am again to get back to hk in order to pass up my assignment in time... see how much i love doing my work lol... so when i got back to hku after cny i had 2 assignments due and 2 midterms to handle... stressful week... and one thing i want to point out is about the thunderstorm cloud above my head when i got back to hku sorry friends... was very stressed and stuff... sorry if i did anything to offend you guys...

other than the midterms and the assignments i also decided to participate in the joint hall mass dance which is when all the halls under hku come together and we celebrate the joy of dancing... its basically to put in lame man terms a dance festival :) hehe... i've always said that i wanted to get back to dancing and honestly this is my first step towards getting use to dancing all over again... and its a different style from my usual broadway... this time i'm attempting something like street jazz and hk hip hop lol... hopefully i can pull it off before i actually pull my legs off... lol i haven't been dancing for ages so of course my muscles will ache... the guys have been really sweet offering to picky back me up the hku steps and carry my books when they saw me in pain... lol.. Thanks guys :)

So now i'm at the start of my reading week.... and to be honest my reading week is really a reading week aaaaaaa ~~~.... lol here's the rundown

Sat : Midterm

Sun : Standard Charted Marathon ( yes i attempted .... to support them ... it takes effort ok... i didn't sleep... i had to be there by 4.30am to support them and i just woke up from my sleep >.<>

PS : Daddy you better run this marathon next year its freaking inspiring and you;'ll definitely enjoy it :)

Mon : Assignment due and a firm visit

Tues : Cycling and bbq on the beach, and dance practice

Wed : Macau ( at the last minute i managed to get a free trip including transportation and hotel to macau so happy)

Thurs : mentor ship program and dance practice

Fri : internship program

Sat and Sun : Finish up some work, do some applications and Study Study Study !!!

See indeed it is a reading week except the macau and bbq trip :) hehe... oh well cest lavie

and its also because i'm living in one of the busiest cities in the world ...

-natalie-

Yes, Patience Is A Virtue...

I seriously have no idea whats wrong with you...

I understand that you are suffering from severe lack of sleeps just like the majority of HKU students... (its our trademark)

I understand that your severely stressed with the amount of work that you've been getting from not just our professors but from your other activities...

But it still does not give you a reason

To make rude remarks towards other people who are not as fortunate as you to be able to speak cantonese or mandarin in HK alright...

It also does not give you a justified reason to go around talking to everyone with a rude tone...

No doubt things aren't going as well for you as they normally do... you should have an EQ high enough to be able to handle it and other matters with grace...

And after all this even if you need a shoulder or and ear...

We are all here... waiting to great you with open arms ...

You just need to open to us...

*starts chanting PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE continously....

Random Thought : Should I start twittering?

No Air...

hello...

I've been coughing for a very very long time already... and yesterday the cough kind of manifested and my body decided to go on a coughing spree for 5 minutes non-stop in the middle of my management accounting class... it was so bad that i had to run out of class to escape the icy evil glares that i was getting...

So i went straight to a doctor as soon as my classes were over ...

While waiting for the doctor i ended up being fascinated by the fact that i was watching pokemon in cantonese x)... haha... so after a through examination .... the doctor asked me where are you from ? then i was like malaysia... then he concluded that i was allergic to the air in hk....

My first reaction of course was the you-must-be-kidding me face... and then he went on to explain that my airways are actually inflamed and that their quite swollen thats why i find it hard to breathe sometimes... something in the air must have triggered the allergic reaction... and i was like great another thing to add to my list of problems with my lungs...

So the doctor gave me medicine and told me to rest more... and gave me the i-pity-you-that-your-allergic-to-the-air face...

I feel so miserable right now... cause there's nothing i can do other than cough non-stop... its not like i can stop breathing or afford my own personal move able oxygen tank right? my only solace now is that i have my puppies kenny and kylie to accompany me in your place and that i'm going to be going back to kl for chinese new year this saturday :)... Clean air babeh!!!

Today when i woke up i decided not to be defeated... so i went to class like normal... took my medicine... and then suddenly out of no where the allergy decided to manifest itself... and i started coughing... my tutor looked at me with such concern and my classmates looked annoyed so, i decided to run to the toilet before i annoyed anyone any further... so here i am now actually skipping class when i'm actually able to attend... first time in my life skipping classes ok... i feel weird... so what do people normally do when they skip class?

To be honest i really miss you now and i want so bad to call you cause i know i'll feel better but you told me not too... so all i can do is wait till the next sunrise comes...

What Do I Want To Do ?

Here's some of the things I want to do in pictures :)

know you'll figure it out ;)

Dare You Take A Chance?

Dare you take a chance

And jump into the unknown

the blue abyss while being alone?

Dare you take a chance

And raise your voice

while looking at me straight in the eye

with your bloodshot eyes?

Dare you take a chance

And stand up

while rocking in front of the world

with your hair in a mess

and your lips all smudged in crimson?

Dare you take a chance

To let your heart skip a beat

and to let your feet not touch the ground?

Life's all about risk. No matter what it is

You just have to take that one chance , roll the dice, and play your cards right

If you don't take that one risk you'll never know if you've missed out on something important

Where Did The Time Go?

There's always something to do

There's always something lurking around the corner

Well it is HK after all...

I went to my first lesson for Professional Preparation Program yesterday... yes the class that i had till 8pm .... i was so tired when i got to class thinking that this is going to be another boring lecture well at least thats what i got from the course outline which i read a few weeks ago in KL...

but boy was i wrong... i was so freaking wrong... that it isn't funny at all

Not that it was interesting

But it really opened my eyes...

Not like the Star Education Fair didn't but yeah...

They showed us guidelines regarding where we should be at or at least should have done in order to prepare us for the working world...

Sad to say I'm quite far behind...

There's so many things to apply for like Internships and exchange programs.... I'm getting worried... there's like so many things to do and yet there's only so much one can do given the amount of time one actually has...

I've been looking up internship programs, social community work and exchanges... there have been some that have really caught my eyes and stuff... i'll keep you guys posted :)

About the Star Education Fair...

For those who were with me in the periods of 2008 -2009 should know ... No doubt Nick C and YL would know what I'm talking about....

That was how things came to be...

Anyway i'm off to prep for my next round of classes tomorrow... my assignments came in just today... here comes the storm....

After A Week of University...

hello

one week of university has passed... all is calm still... but the storm is coming x)... yay ... bring on the thunder....

i've got heavier subjects this semester...

- Management Information System (MIS)

- Management Accounting (I)

-Principles of Management

-Business Statistics

-Professional Preparation Program

-Corporate Finance

-English for Business Communications

- Putonghua II (maybe... should I ?)

Here we go again ...

Life's just another roller coaster ride... It goes up, down and all around...

For some reason everything seems different this semester.. what used to be fun isn't anymore... maybe i'm aging, maybe i'm changing or maybe because your just not here...

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Ain't It Funny...

Ain't it funny how it all began

On one starless dark night

I can remember us sitting by the stairs

Giving each other evil glares

Talking and laughing about random stuff

I can remember the black hooded guy

Who kept on coming closer that you had to shoo away

The wine and the food adventure that you took me too

and how we always stayed up by the fountain till the morning light showed

And it brings me sadness knowing that those days are gone

For you have flown away

To a little island in the far south east...

Will we ever have more time or will the clock stop ticking altogether ?

My Label ABC's...

hello all

I went to pavillion today and saw so many brands...

I'm bored now... so i decided to test my brand name knowledge....

A = Abercrombie and Fitch/ Adidas/ Armani Exchange

B = Burberry/ Bimba and Lola /Bvlgari/ BCBG

C = Channel/ Coach / Ck /Converse/ Club 21 / Charles & Keith

D = De Squared/ Dorothy Perkins / Diane Von Furstenberg/ Donna Karen New York (DKNY)

E = Eclipse/Esprit/ Envee

F = Furla/ French Connection United Kingdom (FCUK) / Forever 21

G = Guess/ Gucci/ Gap

H = H&M/ Hermes

I = Island Shop

J = Jimmy Chia/ Jimmy Choo/ Joan and David / Juicy Couture/ Jaspal

K = Key Ng

L = Levi's/ Longchamp/ La Senza

M = Mango/ Mikimoto/ Massimo Dutti/ Max Mara / Montblanc/ Max & Co.

N = Nicole/ Nicci/ Nafnaf/ Nose/ Nine West

O = Omega

P = Prada/ Polo Ralph Lauren

Q = Quicksilver

R = Rolex/ Roxy/ Reem Acra

S = Salvatore Ferragamo/ Skechers/ Shanghai Tang/ Stuart Weitzman

T = Tifanny & Co. / TAG Heuer/ Tods / Thomas Sabo

U = Uniqlo

V = Versace/ Vera Wang/ Vivienne Westwood

W = Wah Chan/ Walker

X = Xixili

Y = Yves Saint Laurent

Z = Zara

Did I miss out anything?