What I Know...

My heart tells me that I believe in HIM...

My mind tells me that I'm not meant to understand HIM and HIS ways...

I know that my chance will come...

Its just a matter of when and where...

Till then i'll just have to put my faith and trust in HIM as always...

Death

Today the world lost two icons from two different worlds... One was the King Of Pop who dominated the charts and won the hearts of many adoring fans. The other was a stunning actress, an angel.









As a kid i have been exposed to Michael Jackson. Songs such as smooth criminal, billie jean and beat it were all part of my childhood. In fact he was the reason why i wanted to dance in the first place. His moves dazzled my young imagination. his moves sometimes defied the laws of physics. His song the way you make me feel was the first song i actually danced too according to my mum. In the entire music industry i cannot think of someone who is much better then michael jackson because he is irreplacable... Who else can write, sing and dance as well as him...






The lost of such a talented individual who has entertained us for 45 years is a great lost indeed.

Today Farrah Fawcett lost her battle to cancer. One of the three pioneer angels and a hair icon. She made woman everywhere wanted the fawcett hair. She kind of started that hairstyle anyway.





Tonight the world mourns as the world has lost two talented and beautiful souls.

In A Week

it just hit me... in a week from now i'll be jobless :(... the sadness but oh well at least now i got more time to prepare and hang with my peeps ... so friends please keep yourselves free for me :) *lil innocent girl smile (like i have one)..

but its so sad i feel attached to eastin now... i think everything in eastin is getting to me... shall upload pics to facebook and the pics from the outing with lw and yl soon... :) just a lil lazy to take the cord and load it to the com sorry...

Just Three Girls And A Mall

:) i went out with yl and lw today ... too bad su yee couldn't make it (miss u girl) we were suppose to watch 17 again... *17forever by metrostation plays in my head * .... but then the only tickets left were for front row seats... so yl decided not to risk it... for future references i don't mind sitting in the first row unless its at tgv ... gsc i don't mind... anyway we went shopping or rather yl went shopping for an outfit deemed suitable for her astro scholarship interview :)

CONGRATULATIONS DEAR !

YOU CAN DO IT

HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF

Well in the end she bought the dress and decided to spend money on just a blazer instead of a shirt and skirt ... hehe but yl the dress is seriously worth it... I'm so tempted to buy the ballet flats in vincci because i found a matching scarf in forever 21... but me being frugal with my money due to the fact that i already spent money at the nine west and bodyshop sale.... which was a calling by the way ... decided to bring mummy and daddy instead... i will try my best to convince them that the shoe and the scarf is essential for my survival in hk... which is true... i need the flats so that my feet won't hurt when i walk around my huge campus and i need the scarf to keep my neck warm so that i won't get a sore throat which could lead to a cough or a fever later on .... see i need those items... :) ...

oh something funny happen... when lw saw my new hp for the first time ( this tells you how long she hasn't seen me ) she said excitedly ' your phone so MAJU ! ' lol she's so cute... *hugs girl...

anyway i will upload photo's from the outing another time... oh lw tell me when you've upload your share of the photo's... please and thank you...

To Yee Lian and Lai Wah

Thanks for taking me out :) i needed one ...

-natalie-

Angels and Demons

haha i finally watched angels and demons with someone else ... and i thought i was so outdated.... anyway thanks ben for keeping me company and for telling me why Saint Peter crucified himself upside down....

i really really love the show except the eyeball part which is super gory to think they can show the body without one eyeball... that part really made me cringe...

One of the reasons why i loved this show was the fact that it really made me think.... hah i guessed most parts better than ben... lol... well i had fun considering the fact that i received rather disturbing news in the morning at the appointment.... i just thank HIM for being there for me and for keeping me calm when i received the news... and for not making it what i thought it would be... and what i thought it would be was far worst than the news i got...

oh yeah is it me or is it the movie ? the way the fourth preferitti for the water element was suppose to die lame? i mean like compared to the first three ... the third preferitti for the fire element was so sad... he could have lived... hehe i finally borrowed the book from yee lian :) ...

it makes a book to read during your spare time :)

Spontaneous Epiphanies

Epiphany - a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.

An epiphany is normally very spontaneous... It can happen at any given time or place no matter what situation your in... as for me mine happened during the nine west shoe sale .... pretty random don't u think... i was trying on some shoe and then i realize OMG i'm going to HK in about a months time .... as to how the shoe is related to HK i will nv know cause i don't know if the shoe can prevent my toes from falling off due to the cold weather... which is going to be autumn going winter when i go to hk... I think only GOD knows...

I don't know if you can count this next one as an epiphany or logic...

I was going to cross a very very busy road to get to the other side.. when all a sudden i felt an urge to feel the rush of adrenaline that one gets when he or she gets hit by a moving object... don't ask me why i just wanted to feel a near death or deadly experience... so i looked left and right and i saw my chance a bus was coming ... so i decided ok i'm going to walk slowly and then suddenly this ambulance appears out of no where... and then it hit me... it would be stupid to get hit right now cause the ambulance is just like a meter away from me...

My mind works in strange ways... but i guess thats what sets me apart from the rest of the crowd...

I know that HE'll send me another better rock to lean on soon because i know HE cares...

A Mixture Of Emotions...

Right now there are so many things going on in my mind that i cannot comprehand the fact that there are just so many things going on...I;m between crossroads now as i near the age of being 19 sooner or later many things will be in my hands and even more things will fall on my shoulder... And soon i'll have to decide if something is really worth the pain or not .. and i've decided to forget about it because right now i need myself to be happy to prevent it from getting worst and besides if you don't care why should i?... i'm hoping that i'll get that appointment tomorrow... so wish me luck...






I know I'll weather this storm just like the other storms in my life... No one here is turning their back on you but for some reason your doing that to them... We'll always be here if you need to talk... -natalie-

Someday, Somehow I Hope You'll Make It Right Again...

The best part of falling sick is that your mum would cook for you...

The sad part about falling sick is that you feel weak that every small tiny mistake seems GIGANTIC for some reason...

The other sad part of falling sick is thinking that you've gotten sick because of this illness only to realise that its not that virus or bacteria that made you sick but something else completely...

somethings wrong and i'm scared.. i know i shouldn't be scared but i can't help it... because i'm not sure yet...

oh something funny happened in the office today i met a mr cullen... but he wasn't Edward cullen... instead he was some client or guest named Ian Angus Cullen from Scotland or something... it was so random...