New Baby In The Family

hey world

meet my new nephew isn't he cute?

haha sorry for the many photo's but i just couldn't help but show off my new nephew's cuteness and handsomeness... hehe isn't he totally cute and handsome oh if only he was born before me lolz... x) jk... bye all

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hey all

the reason for this post would be because of the song she never cried in front of me by toby keith and the fact that i feel such emoness surrounding me thanks to the song .... its so addictive....

How was I supposed to know?

She was slowly letting go?

If I was puttin her through her hell,

Hell I couldn't tell.

She could've given me a sign,

Could've opened up my eyes.

How was I supposed to see?

She never cried in front of me.

Yea maybe I might’ve changed,

It's hard for me to say.

But the story's still the same,

Its a sad one.

And I'll always believe,

If she ever did cry for me,

They were tears that you can't see,

You know the bad ones.

Trust me if i could i would...

Life As It Is....

hey all

don't you all ever get the feeling that sometimes life is ....

SHOCKING

makes you want to do something about it

makes you want to lend a helping hand to others

makes you want to turn away and hide from the rest of the world....

makes you wanna cry....

makes you all happy and joyful on the inside sometimes...

It also makes you want to hit stuff and

throw everything around in order to just destroy them...

That's life ... but at the end of the day life's what you make it always has and always will be ... so let's just hope we're doing it right =)

goodnight all.......

Just A Few Words

* warning warning long post ahead turn around if your not up for it *

hey all

firstly i would like to go to the edge of a cliff and scream TRIAL IS OVER out of pure joy.... No more sleepless nights due to worrying and no more gastrics pains and no more pen stabbing my stomach and no more blue ink pen stains on my hand and no more frezzing my butt off until my hands go numb and cannot write properly... YEAH MAN no more no no no.... i feel so outdated someone update me please esspecially my chi mui's as i ahve not been in their lifes for the pass few weeks due to the exams esspecially you YEE LIAN AND SU YEE .... Sorry for not being around SORRY It was all his fault *points fingers at SAM* .... wait is sam a girl or a boy ??? gah it doesn't matter its a unisex name anyway....

Secondly, i'am would like to say to my G11 mates for making you all wait for nick and then in the end for not going to the makan place in PJ with you all sorry sorry sorry .... *holds up sorry sign* awyz i bet you all had fun esspecially susan who was longing for food .... oh yeah susan what's your blog link? hehe let me know yeah :) ... awyz i shall try to join you all for other outings during this one week hols... sorry ... oh yeah ethan can i borrow your 'the other boelyn girl' dvd? pls and tqs....

Thirdly.... i just wanted to say this.... *ahem*

i may not be the size two small girl that i used to be but at least now i've grown taller

and i'am no longer underweight

I may be rounder but at least its easier for me to buy clothes now

I may not be as fit as i used to be but at least i'am happy

and plus i emo less now x) i bet the people around me have noticed that

My face may not be as clear as before

but thats only cause my hormones have catched up with me

and also cause i'm stressed due to some of the nonsence that i have to put up with sometimes

(the only non underweight person in the family )... even though i'm getting fatter i will try not to get upset cause i will make sure i exercise (already have plans for the gym tomorrow ) and eat moderately... and now because i eat more i ahve now found a new joy for food x) i love all those makan outings that i have with my fellow G11 mates... Its always very enjoyable x)

Fourthly , i'am so glad that i finally get to relax for a while before my last final exam in NOV i know its nearing but hey i deserve a break too right? i'll sometime soon when i feel like it i guess....

fifthly (if theres such a thing ), i 'am now super obsessed with the man who can't be moved song by the script i don't know why .... oh yeah i'am a very weird person.... i sing songs in head during exam while doing the paper... i think thats how my brain works.. thankfully i never wrote any of the lyrics for the songs on to the exam paper... if i did that would be super embrassing... lolz.. today i sang just danced by lady gaga funny eh and during the maths paper i was singing the man who can't be moved and i think i sang disturbia during one of the other exam papers... ok i shall stop rambling about my weirdness sorry x)

lastly.... i'am off to a long and nice deserved indulgence in hk movies :) only lynndy and susan understand the joy of watching hk movies x) hehe

Ps: i fear of what my trainer might do to me tomorrow . pls have mercy

Pss: i can't wait for the arrival of my new nephew tomorrow :) will post pics when i get it...

bye guys and happy hols to all sam students x)

Just Words

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages
Feelings gone astray
But she will sing
Til everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this faith
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all done
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns

It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky

It seems like yesterday

I didnt know how hard I could cry

It feels like tomorrow I may not get by

But I will try

I will try wipe the tears from my eyes

I'm beautifully broken and I don't mind if you know it

I'm beautifully broken and I don't care if I show it

Every day is a new day I'm reminded of my past

Everytime theres another storm I know that it wont last

Every moment I'm filled with hope

cause i get another chance

But I will try I will try

Got nothing left to hide

To Those Who Were With Me Yesterday

To those who were with me yesterday,

I would just like to thank you all for being there with me and caring for me. I'am so sorry that i've made you people worried about me :)... anyways don't worry about me i'm taking the meds now and i'll be back in full swing in no time thanks so much and hopefully the thing will be gone soon ;) . anyways good luck to all sam students for their trials ...

ps: i'm going after sam to murder it x)

pss: susan if your reading this

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUSAN !!!

ok i know its not today but hey its coming tomorrow awyz you have an awesome one ok darling?

yours sincerely ,
natalie

Time To Focus

hey all

i think this will be my last post in a really long long time cause my trials are just around the corner and the stress is really starting to get to me... i feel as if 24 hours everyday really isn't enough .... and to make matters even worse the mood just isn't there.... gah sometimes i wonder what happened to it... i think i squashed it with my enourmous butt or soemthing ... gahness.... i need to focus but i don't know how this is just so bad right now.... i need help... you know what i'm not going to let this get to me this time... i will still survive just barely... sighs i need to FOCUS...


on to a happier note g11 and i celebrated susan's birthday last night at restaurant talipon(oh the cuteness x) its a restaurant... don't know why they named it that ) and at k.t.z (mango loh place)... i had a fun time cooking and eating my throught he night x)

Like a grain on the beach

Like a star in the sky

Far too many to count with the naked eye

They won’t see you

Go ahead

Walk on by

You don’t know I’m alive

Maybe one day you’ll find

You should open your eyes

You don’t know me

You’re the one who looked right through me

Now you’re saying that you knew me

When I was invisible

And you’re the one who walked right through me

Now you’re saying that you knew me

When I was invisible

awyz i gtb all bye....

To Sum It All Up

hey all

the weeks ahead are the ones that i do not long for

cause there is nothing but death that awaits me

as much as i try

i can fight no more

cause there is nothing but the sounds of defeat ringing in my ear

the winds are blowing

signalling a change in the air

but the battle still lies ahead

i put my armour back on

put my sword on my right

my arrows on my back

maybe i'll win

or i'll die trying

i think that pretty much sums it up sorry it sucks x) hope you get it....

-natalie-