bittersweet impressions

Things To Do Before Going Back To Hong Kong...

2010-08-08T02:44:00.000-07:00

1. Satisfy all Malaysian food cravings
2. Buying snacks to bring back to HK

3. Packing

4. Buy stuff for myself (eg : LBD, fedora and etc etc)

5. Seeing everyone for one last time

6. Get over turning 20

- Seriously my mum's not helping she constantly reminds me how close I am to turning 30 >.<

Thanks mum ....

7. Persuade my dad to let me go clubbing ... to zouk hopefully...

So little time so much to do...

On a brighter note my internship at kpmg is ending soon and i knew that

I would be on the cover of vogue ;)

If I Told You....

2010-07-24T21:33:00.000-07:00

I can't figure out your game

Would you stop dead in your tracks

Turn around and smile

and explain the game that your playing

or would you just turn around and smile

with your pokerface and pretend

that there is no game...

Subconcious

2010-07-15T19:01:00.000-07:00

Hey All

Dreams are a glimpse of our subconcious

I had a very weird dream last night. I woke up feeling strangely emo. I couldn't remember the dream that much but I remember seeing three pairs of black scissors in a mug on my working desk.

I'm at work now and there's no scissor but just a mug on my desk... I think i might be going insane from the lack of rest i'm getting.

But they say that the dreams that we remember are the dreams that mean something. I've googled and apparently it means that my focus is being divided into too many different directions...Well i guess that is partially true given what has happened the night before...

Either way, Its going to be alright ;)

Wrong Place? Wrong Time?

2010-07-05T06:47:00.001-07:00

The problem with making a decision is that you'll never know which decision is the right one until it all plays out right until the end of the whole thing which is the final outcome...

Unfortunately right now... I feel like I've made the wrong choice... for some reason I refuse to wait until the end of the whole entire thing... I'm just very sick and tired of it all... I'm just so restless for it to all end cause I have for some reason made up my mind about it already...

People keep on telling me that I'm just at the wrong place at the wrong time... but hey what do I know about this area in life after all i'm not yet an adult...

" trust me ... it will work out" thats what you always say and thats what you only always say...

Your words are merely words.. and thats all their always be to me...

Nasi Lemak Revelations...

2010-06-28T20:39:00.000-07:00

After being at home for about a month now
I just realise I haven't eaten that one thing that 've been craving for when I was in hk
My favourite Nasi Lemak Cikgu

*insert nasi lemak picture here*

I don't know why i never suggested that to my parents...
I should have they would have moved mountains to get me some
Cause they want me to gain weight :)

I realise that I always say that i want to do something but i never got around to doing it
cause most of the time I forget about it or i keep delaying it cause i know i can do it tomorrow...

oh well

My short break is up time to get back to work :)

The Tiny Things...

2010-06-17T19:09:00.000-07:00

I have long heard that we should be happy with everything no matter how tiny that thing is....

Well this post is about how one of the tiny things in life makes me happy :)

I have been interning since 1st of June only to realise that the life of an auditor is rather boring, static and dry. I've spoken to my parents about it but only to be adviced to give it another shot and to take it with an open mind .

I won't say that I don't find it boring anymore I still do but something that involves auditing made me happy recently :)

Yesterday I did a FAR report for the company I was assigned to... It was tedious and dry and boring... did I mention boring ? but the happy part was that I got to put my name on the report :)

Some of you may think that its something thats not worth being so excited about but i like being recognized for my work esspecially when a lot of sweat has been put into it... So hence, being able to put my name and my initials on the report is like a small recognition of all my effort which involves going through all the documents to find supportings for the figures and carrying a lot and lots of files up and down the stairs with high heels and doing overtime for the past week....

Hehe now you know why I have a smile on my face :)

I Would Have Shed Tears

2010-06-13T23:45:00.000-07:00

I read an article today about how neither north korea and south korea are not ready to go to war despite the fact that both sides hate each others guts...

It made me think about what would happen if the people i knew who underwent army or national service were suddenly called up for war...

I shudder at the thought really.... but then later realise how silly it was to think of such thoughts... :)

Back to work...

Enjoying Me Time...

2010-06-11T09:55:00.000-07:00

Throughout our entire lives some of us are not that fortunate to lead life the way we want too while others are lucky enough to be given the chance to do so...

I've been lucky enough to have gotten the chance to lead my life the way I want partially... with a little persuassion and some suggestions from my family and friends about how I should lead my life though...

But recently I have come to realise that the life I am leading is not something I actually really really really want anymore... I still want it but not as badly as Ive wanted it before... why? because sometimes all the work that goes into getting it is not exactly the most enjoyable thing to do... not only is it enjoyable but involves a lot of sacrifices... my happiness and health being some of the things that i have had to sacrifice the pass few years...

So what do I want now? I just want to be able to enjoy the process of getting the life I want...

Starting with enjoying what could be my first and last summer holiday.
Thus, I'm currently in Singapore trying to relax and enjoy my summer as much as possible as I probably won't be able to for the next few years and also cause I haven't acually got a chance to fully enjoy it ... Other than that I also wanted some me time... Away from the daily hassles and stresses of life... Just for a tiny bit :)

Its Been A Year...

2010-05-28T06:39:00.000-07:00

I didn't realize what the date of today was until i looked at my hp today... and it shocked me as the thoughts of last year started playing in front of me again...

A year ago I received a phone call from australia... I felt a jolt of excitement but at the next moment i was in despair...

The events of that time hurt so much.... but i can say that now they don't mean anything to me...

Its been a year... and a lot has happened

a lot has changed...

Angels and Caffeine...

2010-04-13T19:56:00.000-07:00

I won't lie

I am overwhelmed with the amount of work that I'm receiving

I won't lie

and say that I did not feel like jumping down

I won't lie

and say that I'm alright

I'll just say for now that with an angel looking out for me from high above

and with lots of caffeine ...

I think I can pull through...

You Peculiar Little Thing ...

2010-04-11T09:48:00.000-07:00

A few weeks ago, during easter, i went back to cheng chau...

See how beautiful it is :) hehe ... more photo's in fb....

I went to ikea the other day and i thought i would get my meatballs in a plate....

And then last Saturday , I went to Madame Tussand's to hang with the likes of....

and i was shocked to find out that I was taller than Jay Chao :)

and then i realized how short i was after that....

haha off to bed

nighty night

Trying To Wrap My Head Around It...

2010-04-08T02:07:00.000-07:00

My finals are in a month...

I have to :

1. Study for all of my 5 papers...

2. Finish all my Projects

3. Do all my Presentations

4. Get an internship

5. Do my visa

6. Pack my room for the summer...

It sounds so easy right now.... until you look at my planner ...

Sighs... baby i miss you....

Past Episodes...

2010-03-29T03:18:00.001-07:00

Today the topic Christianity came up again...

and all I have to say is that i still have issues with it...

Even though time has passed and I'm currently seeing someone else...

I still can't help but feel a stab or a sudden surge of anger whenever that topic comes up...

From time to time again even though its almost been a year ...

It just keeps coming back...

I know that i have to let it go but i still feel the bitterness every now and then ...

sighs...

only time can help i suppose...

maybe someday somehow when i look back at that point in time i'll be able to just shake it off...

Often At Times...

2010-03-28T20:09:00.000-07:00

Often at times...

being in Hk

takes away your soul cause all you ever do is work work work ....

You work your way in university

You work your way in hall if not people say your slacking

You work your way even when your walking (cause if you walk to slow you get pushed around)

You work your way for internships (trying to stand out is not easy)

You work to make yourself happy (only for workaholics)

and when you finally want to relax something new pops up in your planner, email, blackberry or ipod touch..

You then get out of bed and start working again...

And while your working you would often at times meet obstacles... some that you'll be able to conquer some that you won't be able to handle ...

and it is during those times that i need my boo boo bear...

where did you go boo boo bear?

The Ass Has Spoken

2010-03-26T01:36:00.001-07:00

Therefore, I shall Write me Bloggy....

I'm FUCKING ANNOYED .....

Last night my room door spoiled therefore i didn't close it cause i feared that i would lock myself in.... so i went down to the office to inform then and they said alright we will send someone up to fix it in the morning...

So i expected them to inform me via email or phone call... but little did i know...

The next morning 3 unknown alien man came into my room with hammers and a drill...

they told me to continue sleeping but how on earth do you expect me to continue sleeping if your using hammers and drills to fix my door...

and sleep with 3 alien guys in my room...

the best part was that you guys were arguing in cantonese about who fixed the door wrongly yesterday and how to fix the door...

Seriously... geeezzz

Random Mumblings...

2010-03-13T21:31:00.000-08:00

I hope you're doing fine wherever you are...

if you want me to stay,

say you want me to stay

baby stop playing around with me

there ain't no time to play

if you want me to stay

baby you got to show me

Dancing is taking a toll on my back ... ( a lot of arching)

Attempting to dance hip hop is challenging especially since i have no background in it...

Your like a constant melody stuck in my head

Sometimes I wonder what happened

I hope I'll pull through

I still have two midterms daummmm

I wish I had my mummy here to take care of me...

I want to buy that Guess shoe...

I want to go and lie on the beach and read Jane Austen

I want to go to that book cafe that I saw the other day

I feel like eating

I need to put on weight x)

The End Of My Reading Week...

2010-03-07T04:13:00.000-08:00

I had quite a week to be honest... Lets start with the highlights...

First Highlight : Cheng Chau Island

Cheng chau was amazing :) The air was cleaner than back home and HK... I loved the beach even though it was cold but you guys know that I'll still enter the water... I was good ok i only entered until my knees ... hehe

The seafood was nice too :) not as nice as kl but it was rather fresh :) hehe...

I cycled up the mountain and hiked up some more and I managed to get a shot of the island or at least the developed part of the island (please refer to the picture above) It was so much fun...

except for the part where geneva and I got lost for a bit and got chased by two dogs... x) all part of being a natalie... hehe

Hightlight 2 : Macao Trip

Even though i had to hiked up a lot of stairs and do the cultural exchange with the university of macao ... I still had fun :) want to know why ? cause i got a chance to go to the venetian with my friends and gamble :) lol

Lisa was so funny :) we saw her sitting on one of the slot machines just staring at it and then we tapped her and she said...

L : I don't know what happened I think I just lost Hk$75

N : how?

L : I don't know i just kept on putting money in...

N : x)

hehe... i got my turn on the slot machine :) so happy which was well kind of my goal ... haha just wanted to try the slot machines... hehe

but I must say being in the casino reminded me of some people... I wandered pass the poker table and I remembered zn, arnold, syn giap, , jason and so on... it wasn't until I saw the mahjong table then I started scream OMG Calvin !!!... i later had to explain to my other friends who thought that the excitement of being in a casino had gotten to my head ... haha

Hightlight 3 : Finally getting enough sleep

I must say i miss sleeping... hehe it was good to be able to sleep yesterday ... finally a day where i didn't had to wake up for anything :) hehe... my hols have been packed as you can see from the previous post... ok i got to get back to my corporate finance...

see you guys

Reading Week Is Indeed A Reading Week

2010-02-28T00:04:00.000-08:00

Hello

Sorry for the no updates... been busy ...

So what has happened so far? i went back home to celebrate Chinese New Year... :) CNY was really different this time around.. i guess it comes with studying abroad... I don't know why x) i guess its cause i missed home, family and my malaysian food... and this time around i was actually looking forward to seeing all my relatives... haha i even waked up at 4am in the morning to order to reach kl in time for the reunion dinner and lugged my heavy luggage with my tiny hands to the airport... i guess it shows how much i miss my family ... unfortunately i keep on forgetting to take a full family picture with them... aaaaa i shall remember next year...

and in the middle of it all i got my ielst's results from the british council

And then i woke up at 4am again to get back to hk in order to pass up my assignment in time... see how much i love doing my work lol... so when i got back to hku after cny i had 2 assignments due and 2 midterms to handle... stressful week... and one thing i want to point out is about the thunderstorm cloud above my head when i got back to hku sorry friends... was very stressed and stuff... sorry if i did anything to offend you guys...

other than the midterms and the assignments i also decided to participate in the joint hall mass dance which is when all the halls under hku come together and we celebrate the joy of dancing... its basically to put in lame man terms a dance festival :) hehe... i've always said that i wanted to get back to dancing and honestly this is my first step towards getting use to dancing all over again... and its a different style from my usual broadway... this time i'm attempting something like street jazz and hk hip hop lol... hopefully i can pull it off before i actually pull my legs off... lol i haven't been dancing for ages so of course my muscles will ache... the guys have been really sweet offering to picky back me up the hku steps and carry my books when they saw me in pain... lol.. Thanks guys :)

So now i'm at the start of my reading week.... and to be honest my reading week is really a reading week aaaaaaa ~~~.... lol here's the rundown

Sat : Midterm

Sun : Standard Charted Marathon ( yes i attempted .... to support them ... it takes effort ok... i didn't sleep... i had to be there by 4.30am to support them and i just woke up from my sleep >.<>

PS : Daddy you better run this marathon next year its freaking inspiring and you;'ll definitely enjoy it :)

Mon : Assignment due and a firm visit

Tues : Cycling and bbq on the beach, and dance practice

Wed : Macau ( at the last minute i managed to get a free trip including transportation and hotel to macau so happy)

Thurs : mentor ship program and dance practice

Fri : internship program

Sat and Sun : Finish up some work, do some applications and Study Study Study !!!

See indeed it is a reading week except the macau and bbq trip :) hehe... oh well cest lavie

and its also because i'm living in one of the busiest cities in the world ...

-natalie-

Yes, Patience Is A Virtue...

2010-02-10T03:20:00.000-08:00

I seriously have no idea whats wrong with you...

I understand that you are suffering from severe lack of sleeps just like the majority of HKU students... (its our trademark)

I understand that your severely stressed with the amount of work that you've been getting from not just our professors but from your other activities...

But it still does not give you a reason

To make rude remarks towards other people who are not as fortunate as you to be able to speak cantonese or mandarin in HK alright...

It also does not give you a justified reason to go around talking to everyone with a rude tone...

No doubt things aren't going as well for you as they normally do... you should have an EQ high enough to be able to handle it and other matters with grace...

And after all this even if you need a shoulder or and ear...

We are all here... waiting to great you with open arms ...

You just need to open to us...

*starts chanting PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE continously....

Random Thought : Should I start twittering?

No Air...

2010-02-08T20:05:00.000-08:00

hello...

I've been coughing for a very very long time already... and yesterday the cough kind of manifested and my body decided to go on a coughing spree for 5 minutes non-stop in the middle of my management accounting class... it was so bad that i had to run out of class to escape the icy evil glares that i was getting...

So i went straight to a doctor as soon as my classes were over ...

While waiting for the doctor i ended up being fascinated by the fact that i was watching pokemon in cantonese x)... haha... so after a through examination .... the doctor asked me where are you from ? then i was like malaysia... then he concluded that i was allergic to the air in hk....

My first reaction of course was the you-must-be-kidding me face... and then he went on to explain that my airways are actually inflamed and that their quite swollen thats why i find it hard to breathe sometimes... something in the air must have triggered the allergic reaction... and i was like great another thing to add to my list of problems with my lungs...

So the doctor gave me medicine and told me to rest more... and gave me the i-pity-you-that-your-allergic-to-the-air face...

I feel so miserable right now... cause there's nothing i can do other than cough non-stop... its not like i can stop breathing or afford my own personal move able oxygen tank right? my only solace now is that i have my puppies kenny and kylie to accompany me in your place and that i'm going to be going back to kl for chinese new year this saturday :)... Clean air babeh!!!

Today when i woke up i decided not to be defeated... so i went to class like normal... took my medicine... and then suddenly out of no where the allergy decided to manifest itself... and i started coughing... my tutor looked at me with such concern and my classmates looked annoyed so, i decided to run to the toilet before i annoyed anyone any further... so here i am now actually skipping class when i'm actually able to attend... first time in my life skipping classes ok... i feel weird... so what do people normally do when they skip class?

To be honest i really miss you now and i want so bad to call you cause i know i'll feel better but you told me not too... so all i can do is wait till the next sunrise comes...

What Do I Want To Do ?

2010-02-03T03:03:00.000-08:00

Here's some of the things I want to do in pictures :)

know you'll figure it out ;)

Dare You Take A Chance?

2010-02-01T02:54:00.000-08:00

Dare you take a chance

And jump into the unknown

the blue abyss while being alone?

Dare you take a chance

And raise your voice

while looking at me straight in the eye

with your bloodshot eyes?

Dare you take a chance

And stand up

while rocking in front of the world

with your hair in a mess

and your lips all smudged in crimson?

Dare you take a chance

To let your heart skip a beat

and to let your feet not touch the ground?

Life's all about risk. No matter what it is

You just have to take that one chance , roll the dice, and play your cards right

If you don't take that one risk you'll never know if you've missed out on something important

Where Did The Time Go?

2010-01-19T01:21:00.000-08:00

There's always something to do

There's always something lurking around the corner

Well it is HK after all...

I went to my first lesson for Professional Preparation Program yesterday... yes the class that i had till 8pm .... i was so tired when i got to class thinking that this is going to be another boring lecture well at least thats what i got from the course outline which i read a few weeks ago in KL...

but boy was i wrong... i was so freaking wrong... that it isn't funny at all

Not that it was interesting

But it really opened my eyes...

Not like the Star Education Fair didn't but yeah...

They showed us guidelines regarding where we should be at or at least should have done in order to prepare us for the working world...

Sad to say I'm quite far behind...

There's so many things to apply for like Internships and exchange programs.... I'm getting worried... there's like so many things to do and yet there's only so much one can do given the amount of time one actually has...

I've been looking up internship programs, social community work and exchanges... there have been some that have really caught my eyes and stuff... i'll keep you guys posted :)

About the Star Education Fair...

For those who were with me in the periods of 2008 -2009 should know ... No doubt Nick C and YL would know what I'm talking about....

That was how things came to be...

Anyway i'm off to prep for my next round of classes tomorrow... my assignments came in just today... here comes the storm....

After A Week of University...

2010-01-17T08:23:00.000-08:00

hello

one week of university has passed... all is calm still... but the storm is coming x)... yay ... bring on the thunder....

i've got heavier subjects this semester...

- Management Information System (MIS)

- Management Accounting (I)

-Principles of Management

-Business Statistics

-Professional Preparation Program

-Corporate Finance

-English for Business Communications

- Putonghua II (maybe... should I ?)

Here we go again ...

Life's just another roller coaster ride... It goes up, down and all around...

For some reason everything seems different this semester.. what used to be fun isn't anymore... maybe i'm aging, maybe i'm changing or maybe because your just not here...

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Ain't It Funny...

2010-01-04T06:02:00.001-08:00

Ain't it funny how it all began

On one starless dark night

I can remember us sitting by the stairs

Giving each other evil glares

Talking and laughing about random stuff

I can remember the black hooded guy

Who kept on coming closer that you had to shoo away

The wine and the food adventure that you took me too

and how we always stayed up by the fountain till the morning light showed

And it brings me sadness knowing that those days are gone

For you have flown away

To a little island in the far south east...

Will we ever have more time or will the clock stop ticking altogether ?

My Label ABC's...

2010-01-02T09:38:00.000-08:00

hello all

I went to pavillion today and saw so many brands...

I'm bored now... so i decided to test my brand name knowledge....

A = Abercrombie and Fitch/ Adidas/ Armani Exchange

B = Burberry/ Bimba and Lola /Bvlgari/ BCBG

C = Channel/ Coach / Ck /Converse/ Club 21 / Charles & Keith

D = De Squared/ Dorothy Perkins / Diane Von Furstenberg/ Donna Karen New York (DKNY)

E = Eclipse/Esprit/ Envee

F = Furla/ French Connection United Kingdom (FCUK) / Forever 21

G = Guess/ Gucci/ Gap

H = H&M/ Hermes

I = Island Shop

J = Jimmy Chia/ Jimmy Choo/ Joan and David / Juicy Couture/ Jaspal

K = Key Ng

L = Levi's/ Longchamp/ La Senza

M = Mango/ Mikimoto/ Massimo Dutti/ Max Mara / Montblanc/ Max & Co.

N = Nicole/ Nicci/ Nafnaf/ Nose/ Nine West

O = Omega

P = Prada/ Polo Ralph Lauren

Q = Quicksilver

R = Rolex/ Roxy/ Reem Acra

S = Salvatore Ferragamo/ Skechers/ Shanghai Tang/ Stuart Weitzman

T = Tifanny & Co. / TAG Heuer/ Tods / Thomas Sabo

U = Uniqlo

V = Versace/ Vera Wang/ Vivienne Westwood

W = Wah Chan/ Walker

X = Xixili

Y = Yves Saint Laurent

Z = Zara

Did I miss out anything?

My Sweet Blast From The Past...

2009-12-30T04:14:00.001-08:00

hello :)

I had a sweet blast from the past today... i met my friend hsuen lee today :) after 6ix years of not seeing her... haha i finally met her... she migrated to New Zealand ... I would post up pictures of

us in primary school but i can't find any nice ones ... here we are now...

2009 is coming to an end

another chapter is about to begin ...

HAPPY 2010 EVERYONE !!! MAY THE NEW YEAR BRING YOU ALL LOTS OF LOVE, PEACE & JOY :D

I Miss You, You Know?

2009-12-23T08:59:00.000-08:00

Sometimes there are times

Where I would sit here and ponder

Letting my thoughts wonder

To you

I wonder if we met down the road

Would you still remember me

Would you say hi...

I guess I'll know someday....

Something Interesting...

2009-12-19T00:49:00.000-08:00

My sister said something interesting yesterday...

' I believe that God made us in pairs , we just so happen to be at a different place and maybe at a different time. And somehow when we finally meet them we'll just know... '

I agree with the first bit of her statement but later part not so much... i mean how are you suppose to know if you don't give it a shot right? i mean a girls prince charming isn't just going to fall from the sky right? even if i wished they would then it'll be easier...

Its like even if you get your heart broken after trying but then we sometimes don't realize that even though we get our hearts broken we are well actually getting one step closer to finding the one... Thats why some of us just keep kissing frogs :)

Back Home...

2009-12-18T00:07:00.000-08:00

hello all

Guess what I'm back home ... hehe surprised? i know i told most of you that i'll be back on the 20th but guess what change of plans ? haha i arrived at 3am on the 17th a few days ago via air asia...

well i was suppose to arrive earlier but then my flight got delayed... this is why we shouldn't fly long distance via air asia...the flight was rather eventful...air turbulence all the way and the guy in front of me kept pushing back on his chair consequently hitting my knee all the time and the kid behind me couldn't stop kicking my chair...

thus the headache and body aching i'm experiencing right now... haha... my malaysian number is up and running now ;) so give me a call or drop by my house anytime ok :) can';t wait wait to hang out with you guys... we have so much catching up to do ... hehe...

-nat-

All Work & No Play Makes Nat A Dull Girl...

2009-12-02T23:54:00.000-08:00

hello :)

After staring at my books for the longest of time i decided to go out and spoil myself for a while :) hehe...

My choice of venue :)

My partner in crime :) , Isaiah and I

Orgasmic Nepalnese / Indian food... something that I haven't had in a long time :) hehe... The food was really authentic even the chef was from nepal and even the waiters :) haha overall one good night of relaxation....

Good company + good food + nice weather = a happy natalie :)

What Has Natalie Been Up To?

2009-12-01T23:29:00.000-08:00

hello

So what have you guys been up to? for me i've been trying to study cause i'm in the middle of my finals now and as you all know i had a slight case of food poisoning and stress breakdown earlier on so i have to make up for the lost time... hopefully i can get through this and score well... not hoping much for econs though...

Econs's and I have issues... so this is what i've been seeing for the pass few days ...

I have four finals.... just did one on monday which was psychology all thats left are...

Well I'm off... bye...

You Make Things Easier...

2009-11-30T23:35:00.000-08:00

Thanks for taking care of me when I was sick... :)

If Only He Knew...

2009-11-19T04:11:00.000-08:00

If only you knew
what hides
what lurks behind the dark brown eyes
you see

If only you knew the face
the face you see in the mirror
every morning
every night

If only you could make your mind up
and realise that this is true
if only you knew what was growing inside
yearning for your soul

If only you knew what to do
then you wouldn't hide
you wouldn't be so torned
you wouldn't have to take long walks in the middle of the night

If only you knew that this would last
and you'll never have to find another
you'll never have to search the seven seas
or the stars in the sky

If only you knew that two is better than one
and you know its true that we can't live without each other...

I Will Not Bow ...

2009-11-12T01:10:00.000-08:00

The world has its ways of turning my rollercoaster upside down and stopping it in its tracks...

The world also has a way of lifting me and putting me on cloud 9...

Something unexpected has happened recently

I won't say what happened but your welcome to guess :)

I might just tell you the answer...

It was like the autumn winds ...

It came and go as always

But unexpectedly it stayed this time ...

Hopefully it stays longer

And time will slow down

So that I can enjoy this breeze for a longer period of time...

Clueless, Emotionaless and Souless...

2009-11-05T05:05:00.000-08:00

Between crossroads there I stood
Wondering which way to go

I took the path of another
Not one of my own

I'm walking now and i'm struggling
Its too dark
My eyes can't see

I don't have a light cause someone took it from me
I don't have hands to guide my way

I'm struggling
I'm falling
Into the unknown

A pit
or the bottom of the ocean

I don't care
as I feel the slippery cold hands of misery
Numb my pain

I used to have my feet on soft clouds
and the sun in my face

Where did it go?
I don't know

I know I'll pull through
I always do...

I'll float again sometime soon
But for now I'm just going to lie here
Clueless, emotionaless and souless...

Baby I'm Just So Over You...

2009-11-04T03:01:00.000-08:00

Random scribbles when you day dream in class .....

Baby I can't live a lie
No more, We're through
This is me
I'm walking out the door
From you

Can't you see that we can't mend
Whats broken my dear
Nothing but shattered glass on the floor right now
I'm tired of you
Of all your games
And all the lies you told me too

Nothing but sweet mutterings
To pull me to you
Baby I'm just so over you
Baby i'm just so over you

Why did you do the things you did to me
The lies, where was the truth
Baby I won't denie that I still care for you
I do, after all we've been through
But I can't just do this anymore

I'm just so tired of you
Of all your games
And all the lies you told me too
Nothing but sweet mutterings
To pull me to you

Baby I can't live a lie
No more, we're through
This is me
I'm walking out the door
From you

Baby I'm just so over you
Baby I'm just so over you...

8ight Days In Pictures....

2009-10-28T02:53:00.000-07:00

hello :)

The pass few days have been a blast...

to much dismay it went by too fast...

as i lack the time to write words ...

here are some picture to give you a glimpse of the days passed...

Enjoy !

Geneva and I before second high table dinner

Battle of the halls

Concert tickets courtesy of Isaiah co...

Nigel and I during the cultural fair for HKU

Dinner :) at a nice place with good company...

Hong Kong ...

Finally Lab Work :) for forensic science ... something that i miss doing...

-natalie-

A Lesson To Remember....

2009-10-20T01:56:00.000-07:00

I learned a very important lesson today :)

Its autumn in Hk now... i love the weather :) its not to cold nor is it too hot.... its windy and stuff... it makes hot coffee in starbucks more enjoyable...

it makes walking in the middle of the night more enjoyable

it helps me save money on aircond at night

but it is not a good time to wear flowy short skirts...

i woke up today telling myself i don't feel like wearing jeans... so i put on my fav green flowy skirt... the wind didn't start blowing until after economics class... which was when i finally realise how good my timing is...

so mental note don't wear short flowy skirts when the wind is blowing...

-natalie-

The Last Goodbye...

2009-10-14T21:42:00.000-07:00

We once wrote our names in the sand
Thinking that it will last
and the tides will never wash it away
but for some reason the tides grew strong
eventually your name faded but mine stayed

you left me at a crossroad
drenched in the rain
i watched you walked the road which i could not take
i fell on my knees and curled into a ball
praying that the pain and numbness would go away
eventually the rain stopped and the sun came
warming my icy heart of stone
i soon crawled, walked and ran
i ran in the opposite direction towards a new horizon

the new horizon held unexpected surprises
a world filled with the unknown....

now as the euphoria of the new world fills my vains
i bid you goodbye for one last time ....

This was long overdue... i found it sitting in a pile of paper :)

You Can Be A Sweetdreams or A Beautiful Nightmare....

2009-10-12T12:18:00.000-07:00

hello

Guess what i've been doing for the pass few days?

-well trying to not sleep
-finishing assignments and essays
-trying to study
- trying to get enough sleep
-trying to not lose my sanity
- going to a freddy kepfman concert
-getting on a jet plane
-trying to put smiles on peoples faces
-getting drenched in the rain
-getting burned in the sun
-cooking

interesting eh?

-natalie-

Late Nights

2009-10-04T21:54:00.000-07:00

as of recent date the workload has double and so have the quizes and presentations....

and the midterms are coming... sighs ... thank goodness i only have one before reading week and the rest will be after ... so i only need to worry about econs...

oh well... so guess where i'm heading for reading week... i'll give you a clue :) starts with an 'm' and ends with an 'a' ...

keep guessing :) i'll see you around... need to rush for psychology class....

psychology is driving me psycho... so much to read so little time....

so little time so much to do
i rather spend my days with you
frolicking underneath the sun
or dancing till the sun comes up

life's confusing its like a bouncing ball... it can hit the floor or the wall at every possible angle imaginable but the good thing about it is that it always bounces back... so just like life... we have to take what comes our way and bounce back up again :)

Late September Birthday Wishes

2009-09-30T23:20:00.000-07:00

September 27th

To my dearest smelly melly ,

Happy Birthday Darling !!!

I miss you so much....

May you have an awesome one

May you always be happy

May good things always come your way and the bad winds stay away

May the love between you and Shaun grow stronger as each day goes by

and May you always be healthy as well

love ,

Nat

September 30th

To my dearest best friend / sister Lai wah aka Clarys,

Happy Birthday !!!

Thank you so much for always standing by my side

when i couldn't stand and for the comfort and warmth as well

so on your very special day i just want to wish you all the best

may you always be happy

may your life be filled with amazing things

may you grow even more beautiful as each year goes by

may you always have an angel by your side too :)

love you

from ,

nat

Natalie Goes Disneyland

2009-09-27T00:41:00.000-07:00

I went to disneyland to celebrate my buddy Sook Voon's birthday :)

I had fun it brought out the kid inside of me again :) haha... esspecially since my hair has been in a tight bun for the past few days...

the fireworks we're magical and the parade was cool... It made me emotional... the fireworks, background and music was well the reason why...

only problem it was in canto not the song for the fireworks but for the glow in the dark halloween parade.. haha

regardless i still had fun :)

We went during the Halloween Festivities... so they transformed sleeping beauties castle into a haunted castle....

Merry -go-rounds are so nostalgic...

part of the group . (Clockwise : Debra, Nigel , Li Ling and I)

Li Ling and I with our mickey and minnie ears :) i couldn't resist it was so tempting to get one...

Anyway for more pictures please refer to Fb...

High Table Dinner

2009-09-25T10:56:00.000-07:00

A few days ago ... well actually last wednesday... i attended my first ever high table dinner for my hall... i was kind of excited but kind of nervous at the same time... so i wore my black dress and walked down to the cafeteria... yes i know but they couldn't get another place to accomodate every single person in the hall this the cafeteria was used...

so you imagine hundreds if pretty girls wearing formal dresses and high heels and guys wearing suits with ties walking down the hall to the cafeteria... a little... but yeah wtv... so it was kind of fun.. they introduced us to like all the hall traditions and stuff and apparently my faculty has a song... i shall go and find out haha... x)

so i've been here for about a month plus already... so far hong kong like every other place on earth has its ups and downs...

ups
- shopping is freaking awesome (cheap and is ahead of KL)
-public transport rocks
-taxi's are nice and convinient
- people are really nice
and so on...

downs
- atm machine is slow
-elevator is slow
- language is a bit of issue apparently our malaysian accent is very hard to understand

and thats about it...

anyway i have to sleep going to watch to the interhall aquatic meet tomorrow ;)... hehe.. and going disneyland...

ps : photo's on facebook...

Everyone in this town
is seeing somebody else
Everybody's tired of someone
our eyes wander for help
Prayers that need no answer now
I'm tired of who I am
You were my greatest mistake
I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin

You're Very Thought Provoking You Know....

2009-09-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

there are times where i see you in the corridor and i just want to open my mouth to say a monosyllable word called 'hi'
but somehow or rather my mouth would turn dry...

there are times when i'm walking all alone and i would suddenly smile
as the thought of you starts to pass through my mind

there are times where i find myself trying to guess
the meaning of the words that slipped through your lips...

right i'm sitting here in my room
wondering if you're somehow thinking about me too...

Typhoon 8ight

2009-09-14T20:22:00.000-07:00

Hello

last night at 6pm a typhoon 8 warning was issued hence all classes were canceled until further notice so i woke up this morning at it was still raining... so all my classes before 2pm is canceled... which is awesome cause i had econs today...

so i don't know what typhoon 8 looks like but i know its really really violent winds... i don't know how it looks like cause i slept through the entire thing >.<.... not my fault i was tired esspecially after orientation last night ... oh yeah my orientation will only finish on the 20th... haha ...

so how did i survive my home lock in during the typhoon? especially since i'm quite restless...

- sleep
-eat
-surf the internet
-facebook
-and pray that the typhoon will make all the classes canceled... (i still have putonghua classes)....

i got to go... assignments, projects, presentations....

ps: i used to think i was an average student but now i feel really really below average....

-natalie-

Romance At Shek O Beach...

2009-09-13T07:58:00.000-07:00

Hello...

I went to the beach yesterday as part of the activities held by the university of Hong Kong for international students... it was an hours journey from the university but worth the bumpy and long ride... I had a lot of fun riding the waves ..

and I have now gained a sudden fetish to learn surfing :) haha i know... so weird right.. natalie surfing? but we'll see... hehe.. we had a bbq buffet on the beach before heading towards the ocean... its a really pretty and romantic beach.. i really enjoyed riding the waves and soaking up the sun... but i may have soaked up too much... i'm now a red cherry tomato...

yes i know i should have put on sun block but you see i woke up late and hence i forgot... silly me... anyway here are some shots... there are more on facebook.. so go and check them out...

Jess, Geneva and I

Sook voon and I

The rest of the International Students...

Do you remember,

Or should I rewind,

To that summer when you caught my eye,

I played it cool, The weather was hot,

You had the beauty and the beach on lock.

With your flip flops, half shirt, short shorts, mini skirt,

Walkin' on the beach, so pretty,

You wasn't lookin' for a man,

When you saw me in the sand,

But you fell for the boy from the city

First Day

2009-09-01T02:01:00.001-07:00

hello

I had my first official university class today... I was damn excited until class started... I had Introduction to Economics 1... it was so boring and philsophical.. i was like.... when the lecturer started quoting various economic figures... like adam smith. and marshall something... My lecturer stuttered a little bit here and there but i think he was nervous ... i could see it in his face... haha oh well..

i don't think i'll like economics but maybe it'll grow on me... thank goodness i'm doing accounting anf finance and not econ and finance..

oh btw autumn is coming... haha so its windy here now... i love it man... awesome wind especially when u go to the ferry pier... sea breeze :)...

Hong Kong So Far

2009-08-28T23:08:00.000-07:00

*clears dust

hello :) i don't know if anyone still reads my blog.. but oh well..

hk is really nice so far.. so far my language barrier has only caused me angry screams from the bus drivers and siu pah drivers... it isn't so bad... i'll survive.. i think i'm starting to pick up the language... which is all part of the plan while i'm here... and nope i haven't met any super stars... i've been going to all the places where they normally got to eat but i haven't been fortunate enough to meet any ... but i have three years here so we'll see... haha

the weather here is really hot cause now its summer =.=' but autumn will be coming soon apparently... in hk i have to walk a lot... so i normally come home all sticky and stuff... i guess i didn't feel it back home cause we had cars... here its foot , cab , mtr , siu pah, tram, ferry or bus...
the public transport here is very efficient... so i love it like crazy ... they say 11 mean 11 the bus is coming... the mode of public transportations are also really clean :)... i sat on a double decker bus yesterday to Mong Kok it was damn fun... oh i finally found the toilet restaurant ... where they serve the food in a plate that looks like a toilet bowl... i plan to try it soon...

shopping here is reallly awesome... every High end brand imaginable... and the collections are really nice but the price is damn sexy la.. the shop assistants are really nice and friendly.. although some can be a bit aggressive and continously shove pretty things at your face that you want to buy... but their ok :)... the local shopping scene is also really nice... quality is not bad and its very very cheap... if you know where to go... now there is sales almost everywhere.. at the local brands... the high end brands have just finished their sales.. except chanel... haha

I'm very happy with my life here so far.. although there are some things that i would really like to bring over from kl to here like my bed, family, friends and the ss2 chicken porridge that i have been craving for ever since monday... but going abroad is about learning about yourself.. you either stand tall through it all and come back as a mature and bright individual or you fall victim to certain distractions here and get lost...

whatever may happen i know i'll pull through...

Someone's watching over me...

Ps : photo's are at fb... check them out :)

-nat-

7 Days

2009-08-17T00:38:00.000-07:00

The past few weeks have been really nice and really emo and so on... many epiphanies, much laughter and much joy...

perhaps its just the calm before the storm... i'll be leaving for hk sooner than i thought... i woke up this morning and looked at the calender and i gasped... its amazing how time flies whenever you have something big up ahead of you :) ...

The emoness is setting in ... so awy here's what i've been doing as of late....

oh my visa just arrived .. looks like i'm really going... oh well...

11.08.09 Bliss

2009-08-12T09:26:00.000-07:00

I had a wonderful birthday and i couldn't have asked for a better one :) ... two of my friends (yl and paul) planned a birthday/farewell for me on sunday and on tuesday my friend kin loong took me out for lunch and my parents took me out for dinner... i had fun ... i was surrounded by all the people who meant a lot to me :) Thank you to everyone who made this day possible ...

Kin loong....

haagen daaz...

mum and I at ribs...

orgasmic....

In short it was a gastronomical adventure on my birthday filled with fun, laughter and joy... hehe it was .. i had shabu shabu, hagen daaz (first time) and beef tenderloin steak from my fav shop ribs by vintry in bangsar... more pictures on facebook will be uploaded soon :)

I feel really blessed :)

Sweetdreams Beautiful Nightmare...

2009-08-06T09:06:00.000-07:00

Your smile, your kiss, your eyes, your lips
Nothing but a distant memory
Dreams
Together we painted the skies
With the honest love from high above
But what lies

Well, I need to move on and walk away
I wished you'd asked me to stay

Sweetdreams beautiful nightmare
You're nothing but euphoric ecstasy
I'm picking up the pieces of us
As you walk far away
Goodnight my beautiful melody
Our song has runned its course
Should have known you'll dissapoint me
Your just another fairytale gone wrong

You held my hand, you hold me close
Whispered sweet nothings into my ears
Illusions
I lied awake the night you left
Your voice it rings, you told me things that I'll never forget
This pain

Hurts

Well I thought that this would last
And I've never ever have to walk away

Sweetdreams beautiful nightmare
Our love story is now over
I'm struggling to stay a float
But not anymore
Goodnight my lovely romeo
Your Juliet has gone away
She's writting it in the sand
So that it'll fade away

I cannot say I don't love you
I cannot say I hate you
I cannot get rid of your memory
I wished we can rewrite this story
But then again I know you don't want too
So you're gone and so am'i

Yes, it hurts right now
It isn't even half of what I feel
But I've already let it go

Sweetdreams beautiful nightmare
You're nothing but euphoric ecstasy
I'm glad that your gone
From underneath my skin
Goodnight my beautiful melody
That's all I can say to you
All the pain you've caused me
Has finally dissappeared...

I'm Leaving On Jet Plane , Don't Know When I'll Be Back Again...

2009-07-27T00:01:00.000-07:00

i booked my ticket to hong kong the other day and it made me feel quite emo... it was a one way ticket and i'm not sure if i want to come back in december or go do something else... to be honest i have nothing much left for me here... my friends are leaving too it just so happens that i'm leaving earlier.. and my friends who are not leaving , they'll be fine cause they have a life to live... i only have my family left here that i have to worry about... i won't say what is it that i have to worry about but i know that its part and parcel of life... lifes not a straight road to begin with it has its sharp turns, round abouts and dead ends... but at the end of the day there's always more than one road... which is why people get lost sometimes...

i read a book today that max borrowed me and after reading the book... i felt good... it made me realise that hey its true...this is my second chance... its like a breathe of fresh air.. i'm going to be all alone when i get there but hey its good in a way... and besides i'll never be alone...

so if you ask me right now whether i'm happy or sad that i'm leaving... i will tell you this... i'm more happy than sad to be leaving...

'Every now and then life gives you a second chance its just how you use it at the end of the day'

A Random Solution

2009-07-21T00:25:00.000-07:00

Lately everyone has been asking me so what are you doing now a days... cause I haven't been going out... lol.. i have a good reason to keep myself at home :)

well the reason is because ....

yup i'm sick... no i'm not dying... eventhough it feels like it but i'm not... i just have flu and a very very sore throat that makes me sound like a guy... and no its not h1n1...

my mum's too busy to cook for me today ... so a random solution popped into my head... which was campbell soup... i know pretty random... but what to do.. this is what sick people overseas do when they have no one near enough to get food for them :)... oh well i'll survive...

my throat hurts... i hope it goes away soon *prays...

You Should Have Given It A Chance...

2009-07-14T04:13:00.000-07:00

Hello

I attended my hku reception/gathering on the 12th of July :)... hehe it was awesome... In a sense that i finally knew other people who were going to the same university as me and also because i met some other people there who are just as enthusiastic as me ... and also cause it gave me a chance to meet other people who share the same dreams and hopes of going there...

i'm so happy that i bumped into nigel who like me saw the ad in the newspaper and immediately took it as a chance to get out of here and to move on with our lives... the best part was that we both got into the same course :) so i found a course mate .. :) hehe... I met other people there too who were really friendly... we all plan to go there together on the same flight and such cause some of us can't speak cantonese well...

I've even met li ling whom knows jc ... and we plan to go on a shopping trip once we hit hk ... and we plan to do all sorts of stuff like hiking and makan makan... ;)...my appetite's back btw cause the doc gave me the green light YAY !!!!! s

despite all that the one thing i really really want to do is to get involved in the community projects done by the university students :) its so cool... i haven't decided but its between going to africa to help build school's or go to india and teach english ... My parents have given me the green light to participate so i just have to figure out which one i want... haha... if i go ghana then i can gazelle's and elephants :) *squels with excitement... if i go india i get to buy an authentic saree ... ok that sounds stupid... but then again i might get my kidney stolen in india... and i love my kidneys x)...

to be honest i'm really excited although the language barrier is going to be a really huge challenge... but i doubt its something that i can't handle... but then again the fact that i can't speak the language is going to make it really exciting in a weird way :).... Nevermind if i'm going down their be others coming with me *Smirks...

ps: i met my buddy she seems really really nice .... and friendly too... and she's going to get me from the airport :)...

-natalie-

You Were Superficial To Think It Was Superficial...

2009-07-11T03:57:00.000-07:00

hello

on the 10th of July i was attending my ex school's talent night :) it was a spectacular evening minus the technical difficulties... but none the less the studnets never failed to put up a good show... here are some shots... the video's will be on facebook soon... for picture's of the performances you'll have to check with nick... and after malam bakat instead of heading to mcd or secret recipe with the other people we went and eat lok lok :) lol... it was so much fun ...

nick and I

Finale...

IX and I and some other people i don't know why its so blur... its not my hand...

IX and I again....

The form 5's posing...

Lok Lok goodness x)....

Overall it was a nice night :)

-natalie-

A New Buddy

2009-07-10T22:13:00.000-07:00

The University of Hong Kong practices the Buddy System ... which is a system where the first year international student undergraduates are paired up with one of their senior students in the same programme... and that buddy will fetch you from the airport personally and be your friend/ translator throughout your entire first year...

So today i checked my email and my buddy emailed me :P hehe... she lives here in Malaysia too the only difference is that she is doing BBA ... oh well... hehe she sounds nice... i don't know what to reply in that email... haha sorry but this email really excites me cause it just amplifies the fact that this is becoming so real... other than the fact that my mum cries over ice cubes... yes she's emo... now you know why i'm emo too :)...

but either way i have a feeling i'm going to meet her this sunday at the HKU students meeting... where i'll meet all the other HKU students, their alumni and my professors... i'm nervous .. what should i wear ... maybe i'll where a dress... or should i go with my usual slacks... need advice people... lol...

oh i went to sy's farewell at mcd yesterday ... it was fun but sad at the same time... i realised that sy is older than paul not in terms of age but in the sense that i know her longer than paul...

we met in mandarin class when we were like 4 or 5 ... we went to the same tadika which was tadika diana, we went to the same primary school which was SK TTDI (1) and then we went to the same high school SMKBUD(4) and then we went to the same college which was Taylor's college and now we're both going to different uni's on different continents... its just sad... but thank goodness for the inventions of modern tech...

love you girl ..

Rehearsals, Two Friends & A Little Red Book

2009-07-09T21:53:00.000-07:00

I went to watch the rehearsals for my ex school's malam bakat and i have to say it brings back so much memories... i miss performing i really do but i hanged up my dancing shoes the moment i finished form 5... but hey who knows i might take them out when i go to hk... they have a dance club :) but i don't know why i guess along the way my taste in dance has changed... well i'm more keen to learn things like salsa and stuff more than u know the usual hip and hop and stuff... haha but we'll see how it goes....

haha i liked the whole atmosphere... actually.. it was like a clashing of the titans... cause there were like hip hoppers at one side and then at the other end you'll see ballerina's practicing their routine and then at a distance you can hear the violinist tuning her instrument... haha i don't know why but i loved the atmosphere where all the arts come together... i wanted to go to an arts school when i was younger but the closest i ever got to it was my ballet dance lesson... lol... oh well.. maybe He has other plans... and to be honest i can see it slowly unfolding before my eyes...

either way i'm really looking forwad to friday night ... i'm excited cause this will be the first time i'm actually going to sit down and watch the show ... haha i've performed every year so this is going to be a first ... I already have a few faves that i'm keeping an eye out for that night :)... there's a lot a of variety this year i'm surprised that i've already got faves... x)

haha guess whose this :) .. its my friend david woon from melbourne... i can't believe he actually came remembered to visit me after 2 years... lol.. it was so much fun catching up with him and sharing stuff with him like the old days lol... we decided to hit the swings...

haha i swung higher of course... yeah after talking to me for a while david decided to introduce me to stephanie for some reason he felt that it was right... it was so random... stephanie's really nice... and pretty ~~~ sorry guys no picture i forgot to snap one with her... so i told her my story and she introduced me to a little red book :)...

i'm actally really glad that she did... cause right now i have a clearer picture of stuff... but either way i'm not going to jump into it head first... i still want to check the depth and try my best to do it right... i understand why my friends are really concern with me in this issue... i do and yes its a valid q... which is why i'm second guessing cause well i'm not 100% confident but then again u can never be a 100% confident with anything... but i know that if He has signed the papers for me i'll definitely do it ... its just a matter of time... like stephanie said its like taking a leap of faith...

Transformers, Chicken Kamemashi, House Sushi & A Friend...

2009-07-08T21:35:00.000-07:00

I finally found someone to watch Transformers with me ... finally after scrolling my entire contact list in my hp... someone came around and he was like have u watched transformers then i was noooo...

anyway transformers is so cool :) i cannot stop having that smile after watching that movie.. i'm just glad that i finally got a chance to satisfy my cravings for transformers and chicken kamemashi ... hehe...

transformers was so cool.. except for the part where they killed the tiger look a like decepticon... it was like nooooo ~~~ the kitty dieded... but oh well... from a geeks point of view the part where shia went to heaven and saw the ancient primes .. was so cool but from a normal persons point of view it'll be like so lame... autobots have a heaven too... xP but my geekness got the best of me and i was like thats so cool... but for some reason the fallen prime looked like an alien... well until optimus prime went and ripped his entire face off... either way the movie rocks... i feel like watching it again lol...

chicken kamemashi... haha its from sakae sushi...

it looks like a house so cute.... xP

oh something funny happened... i was showing ben the picture look it looks like a house then he looked at my phone when the sushi was just directly in front of him... then he realised eh the sushi is here... then he looked at the real sushi... lol...

3,4,5

2009-07-06T02:05:00.000-07:00

i had a very fun filled weekend as usual :)...

3rd July - i went shopping with paul and met with my schoolmates to celebrate jen ai's birthday... to be honest the day started like a disaster. I was in bud (4) video taping my sisters dance for her to see then i suddenly get this sms from paul telling me that his car dissappeared so we'll have to walk to 1u but he'll have the car for jen ai's bithday celebration... then i was ok with it i needed the exercise anyway.. but hehe my mum came to the rescue and dropped us off yay! i got some of my hk stuff while shopping with paul. its nice to shop with paul cause he makes me think 3 times before buying something...its like ...

nat : i need a scarf to protect myself from the hk winds...
paul : nat... there's a difference between need and want... so which one is it?
nat : *smiles... but its cold....
paul : your not going to the uk you know...
nat : but i'm skinny and tiny... i don't have much fats to help me fight off the cold...
paul : do you want it or need it...
nat : *evil glares....

well its good in a way ... it helps save money.... hehe and besides i like shopping with paul when his being gay ... he gives good opinions :)... i'm going to miss shopping with paul when i go to hong kong...

after shopping we went home and then refreshed and then disaster struck again... paul sms and called me to tell me that his car disaspeared again... this time his dad took it .. and the best part was that he left his wallet and ic in that car... so he can't possibly leave the hse anyway....so me and my white flowy skirt went by ourselves... i arrived late... sorry jen ai ... i had a fun time seeing all of them again :) it was nice catching up we should do it more often...

i don't have pics from that night... will get it from hr soon i guess...

4th July - hehe i woke up early and went to petaling street :)... one of my fav places to just walk around and look at stuff... i don't know why maybe cause its like one of the closest things to cha chu chat in bangkok ... anyway i was there shopping for my sisters dance costume for talent night... which i'm actually rather looking forward to cause this will be the first time i'm actually sitting down and watching the show... finally right? the only thing i couldn't stand was the sun... haha.... and i couldn't stand checking whether her costumes were in proper condition or not cause after a while i started feeling dizzy.. it was so shinny x)...

after that we went to brickfields to get more stuff for the costumes ... it was so cool... i like the indian/hippie vibe that i was getting from the street and its people... maybe ben's right.. i have a little tree hugger manifesting inside of me or something... i felt so indian in that street especially when we reached bombay point... i wanted to buy the indian earrings cause they looked so classy ... but then i was like i'm going to spend money soon at night ... nvm bombay point will always be there... maybe i'll go there before i go hong kong...

in the evening i invited some human's over for swimming and dinner... but there were many humans who couldn't make it... but either way i was nice to just relax in the water and let everything sink to the bottom... while your eyes are looking at the sky while imagining the possibilities of the future... dinner was fun we went to ming tien ...

haha i went all the way to tj's house which was in klang to play jim rummy :)... lyn was right it is addictive ... and klang air is so hazy... its like smoking without the cigratte... haha i'm not good at jim rummy cause my tiles were sucky but i had fun... haha.. :)... i came home later than usual but it didn't bother me or anyone else.. yes there were calls from parents but thats normal.. i'm a girl ... :) and i love being a girl... i can get away with almost anything well more than the amount of things boys can get away with...

5th July - CHEER 2009... lol BLITZERZ won champion ... they totally kicked ass ... the difference between first place and first runner up was 39 points... way kicking cheerleading ass if you asked me... hehe... it was fun i went with yl, max, lw, sy and brandon... and my sister... it was a really tight competition this year... you could feel the tension in the air... but sad to say there wasn't much hype about it for some reason.. the energy levels were down... but the usual senior teams such as dynamites, shirtliff , xavier and etc... put up a really good show to watch... i'm addicted to basky's now... i feel like youtubing to help my addiction... but i can seriously say that BLITZERZ did a really good job :) i liked the routine.. the music and choreography complimented each other very well...

in between i saw some familiar faces like jasmine, ben, justin, philip , arnold, mei li and jen ai... it was nice to see jasmine whose yl's cousin... she looks very fair and white now... i don't know why but for some reason everyone who came back from australia looks whiter... must be the air there or something... right now i need australian air and brazillian food or water or something... brazillian bods are HOT ... look at gisele...

after the whole cheer thing was over we decided to have dinner as yl wanted to eat dinner with jasmine.. so we went to ikea and had meat balls :)... the conversation we had was so nostalgic... we talked about all the stuff we did when we were in high school... it was so fun .. and then for some reason we talked about yl's wedding plans and her 'J' crushes... haha max had a glimpse of it...

speaking of max... max sorry for mixing your name up with marcus.. it was an accident... :D... hehe ...

it was a nice weekend overall... eventhough there were many days where i had to wake up early and such...

-natalie-

What I Know...

2009-06-28T07:57:00.001-07:00

My heart tells me that I believe in HIM...

My mind tells me that I'm not meant to understand HIM and HIS ways...

I know that my chance will come...

Its just a matter of when and where...

Till then i'll just have to put my faith and trust in HIM as always...

Death

2009-06-26T05:31:00.000-07:00

Today the world lost two icons from two different worlds... One was the King Of Pop who dominated the charts and won the hearts of many adoring fans. The other was a stunning actress, an angel.

As a kid i have been exposed to Michael Jackson. Songs such as smooth criminal, billie jean and beat it were all part of my childhood. In fact he was the reason why i wanted to dance in the first place. His moves dazzled my young imagination. his moves sometimes defied the laws of physics. His song the way you make me feel was the first song i actually danced too according to my mum. In the entire music industry i cannot think of someone who is much better then michael jackson because he is irreplacable... Who else can write, sing and dance as well as him...

The lost of such a talented individual who has entertained us for 45 years is a great lost indeed.

Today Farrah Fawcett lost her battle to cancer. One of the three pioneer angels and a hair icon. She made woman everywhere wanted the fawcett hair. She kind of started that hairstyle anyway.

Tonight the world mourns as the world has lost two talented and beautiful souls.

In A Week

2009-06-23T03:56:00.001-07:00

it just hit me... in a week from now i'll be jobless :(... the sadness but oh well at least now i got more time to prepare and hang with my peeps ... so friends please keep yourselves free for me :) *lil innocent girl smile (like i have one)..

but its so sad i feel attached to eastin now... i think everything in eastin is getting to me... shall upload pics to facebook and the pics from the outing with lw and yl soon... :) just a lil lazy to take the cord and load it to the com sorry...

Just Three Girls And A Mall

2009-06-17T08:22:00.001-07:00

:) i went out with yl and lw today ... too bad su yee couldn't make it (miss u girl) we were suppose to watch 17 again... *17forever by metrostation plays in my head * .... but then the only tickets left were for front row seats... so yl decided not to risk it... for future references i don't mind sitting in the first row unless its at tgv ... gsc i don't mind... anyway we went shopping or rather yl went shopping for an outfit deemed suitable for her astro scholarship interview :)

CONGRATULATIONS DEAR !

YOU CAN DO IT

HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF

Well in the end she bought the dress and decided to spend money on just a blazer instead of a shirt and skirt ... hehe but yl the dress is seriously worth it... I'm so tempted to buy the ballet flats in vincci because i found a matching scarf in forever 21... but me being frugal with my money due to the fact that i already spent money at the nine west and bodyshop sale.... which was a calling by the way ... decided to bring mummy and daddy instead... i will try my best to convince them that the shoe and the scarf is essential for my survival in hk... which is true... i need the flats so that my feet won't hurt when i walk around my huge campus and i need the scarf to keep my neck warm so that i won't get a sore throat which could lead to a cough or a fever later on .... see i need those items... :) ...

oh something funny happen... when lw saw my new hp for the first time ( this tells you how long she hasn't seen me ) she said excitedly ' your phone so MAJU ! ' lol she's so cute... *hugs girl...

anyway i will upload photo's from the outing another time... oh lw tell me when you've upload your share of the photo's... please and thank you...

To Yee Lian and Lai Wah

Thanks for taking me out :) i needed one ...

-natalie-

Angels and Demons

2009-06-13T21:55:00.000-07:00

haha i finally watched angels and demons with someone else ... and i thought i was so outdated.... anyway thanks ben for keeping me company and for telling me why Saint Peter crucified himself upside down....

i really really love the show except the eyeball part which is super gory to think they can show the body without one eyeball... that part really made me cringe...

One of the reasons why i loved this show was the fact that it really made me think.... hah i guessed most parts better than ben... lol... well i had fun considering the fact that i received rather disturbing news in the morning at the appointment.... i just thank HIM for being there for me and for keeping me calm when i received the news... and for not making it what i thought it would be... and what i thought it would be was far worst than the news i got...

oh yeah is it me or is it the movie ? the way the fourth preferitti for the water element was suppose to die lame? i mean like compared to the first three ... the third preferitti for the fire element was so sad... he could have lived... hehe i finally borrowed the book from yee lian :) ...

it makes a book to read during your spare time :)

Spontaneous Epiphanies

2009-06-12T05:33:00.000-07:00

Epiphany - a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.

An epiphany is normally very spontaneous... It can happen at any given time or place no matter what situation your in... as for me mine happened during the nine west shoe sale .... pretty random don't u think... i was trying on some shoe and then i realize OMG i'm going to HK in about a months time .... as to how the shoe is related to HK i will nv know cause i don't know if the shoe can prevent my toes from falling off due to the cold weather... which is going to be autumn going winter when i go to hk... I think only GOD knows...

I don't know if you can count this next one as an epiphany or logic...

I was going to cross a very very busy road to get to the other side.. when all a sudden i felt an urge to feel the rush of adrenaline that one gets when he or she gets hit by a moving object... don't ask me why i just wanted to feel a near death or deadly experience... so i looked left and right and i saw my chance a bus was coming ... so i decided ok i'm going to walk slowly and then suddenly this ambulance appears out of no where... and then it hit me... it would be stupid to get hit right now cause the ambulance is just like a meter away from me...

My mind works in strange ways... but i guess thats what sets me apart from the rest of the crowd...

I know that HE'll send me another better rock to lean on soon because i know HE cares...

A Mixture Of Emotions...

2009-06-06T22:45:00.001-07:00

Right now there are so many things going on in my mind that i cannot comprehand the fact that there are just so many things going on...I;m between crossroads now as i near the age of being 19 sooner or later many things will be in my hands and even more things will fall on my shoulder... And soon i'll have to decide if something is really worth the pain or not .. and i've decided to forget about it because right now i need myself to be happy to prevent it from getting worst and besides if you don't care why should i?... i'm hoping that i'll get that appointment tomorrow... so wish me luck...

I know I'll weather this storm just like the other storms in my life... No one here is turning their back on you but for some reason your doing that to them... We'll always be here if you need to talk... -natalie-

Someday, Somehow I Hope You'll Make It Right Again...

2009-06-01T05:03:00.000-07:00

The best part of falling sick is that your mum would cook for you...

The sad part about falling sick is that you feel weak that every small tiny mistake seems GIGANTIC for some reason...

The other sad part of falling sick is thinking that you've gotten sick because of this illness only to realise that its not that virus or bacteria that made you sick but something else completely...

somethings wrong and i'm scared.. i know i shouldn't be scared but i can't help it... because i'm not sure yet...

oh something funny happened in the office today i met a mr cullen... but he wasn't Edward cullen... instead he was some client or guest named Ian Angus Cullen from Scotland or something... it was so random...

Memo To All

2009-05-28T06:03:00.000-07:00

Today was suppose to be the happiest day in my life ... but i got an unexpected call which brought news of despair, sorrow and anger... the call cut me very very deep till i could not feel the pain all over my body due to the fact that i have been in pain for the past few days... my jaw, neck, arm and ankle hurt... no i'm not lying they have been hurting...

to be honest i felt insulted by the call... and now i can never ever be nice to the person who called me... there is no way i can ever find a way or reason to forgive this person... and as far as i'm concern that person is dead in my book... well if you want to know i'll never tell you but you can ask that person in sydney he would know...

not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

I'm single (Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single (Right now)
That's how I wanna be

Ah yeah
Uh Huh
that's right
Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying
I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

You get my drift?

I'm A Brunette Who Wants A Green Scarf ...

2009-05-15T08:29:00.000-07:00

hello

this post is going to make me sound blonde even when i'm actually a brunette...

you know what i just realized that i found my green scarf last sunday... i don't know why it took so long for it to hit me in the face.... but now its like i'm debating whether to buy it or not... i don't know why i mean the lady was willing to sell it to me for only rm12-15 like that... why am'i even debating i means its like the green scarf...

ok lets analyze this properly...

why didn't it hit me until a week earlier ?

a. my brain is not functioning...

b. i haven't been thinking about it...

c. i'm just slow and blur (hopefully not..)

d. because i'm still looking for it...

you know what i think its b... i mean like recently i had lots to think about ... like which laptop to buy... ( i'm open for recommendations... *smiles while hoping that someone would answer my plea *) and then what kind of shoe to buy because i just realised that i'll have no shoe to wear to hong kong because all of them are open toed... so if i wear those my toes will freeze and might fall off like the poor pirate's toes in pirates of the carribean 3 ... which is something that i don't want... i love my toes ok... and then i have to think about how many turtle necks to buy and other clothes... and then i have to think about which medicine i should bring to hk because i'll surely fall sick... and then from there i have to think how to get it through the customs... because i heard hk customs are really really strict... and the list goes on...

see how much thinking goes on in my tiny pea sized brain...

why am'i debating with myself whether to buy the green scarf....

i think its because i just blew 3 months worth of salary on my phone which i now claim it as a 3 year investment and a basic human right :).... so don't ask me why i spend so much on a handphone mind you i didn't change my phone for 7 years... nokia is so tahan lasak...

and another reason is because i'm short on cash... so i have to find a way to get some... lets review the options...

a. go to bank

b. ask daddy

c. ask mummy

d. find another sponsor...

you know what i like option b and c better :) hehe... but seriously why am'i debating with myself whether to buy it or not this is so freaking stupid... once i buy it i just need the boots , the right jacket and the agnes b mall.... * smiles while imagining....

isn't it pretty... wait for me agnes b... i will come soon with my green scarf i hope...

anyway i just realised that one of hku's partner universities is unsw.... so are you thinking what i'm thinking... *Smirks

i just realise that i can go to disneyland hong kong *squels with excitement

i just realise i can see princess jasmine *smiles widely

i just realise that i would be the oldest person greeting the princesses in disneyland excluding the mummies and daddies and aunty and uncles there and nannies... damn... oh well nevermind...

i'm keeping my fingers crossed that the uni will make a field trip there... *keeping fingers crossed*

-natalie-

Upgrade

2009-05-10T00:39:00.000-07:00

Hello

I finally upgraded my handphone haha... its not the latest model but it did burn away 3 months worth of my salary.... anyways I bought a N79....hehe

You guys don't need an image right? haha ...

Anyway I'm still waiting for someone to teach me how to text in cantonese... anyone?

Girly Financial Woes

2009-05-06T07:39:00.000-07:00

' So much time , so many things to buy but so little money '

Lately I have an itch to go shopping. i don't know why but my hands are itchy.... really really itchy... it became worst today when i bought my cleo magazine and saw all the ads and new collections of some of my favourite brands...

and you know the sad part i got my allowance today and then i realize i can't use it because i need to get a new handphone.... so its kind of sad... and not only that i have to think about all the things i have to buy so that i can survive in hong kong which mostly revolves around winter clothing because its going to be autumn going to be winter once i reach there...

hehe i feel excited... i can imagine myself with my green scarf and black boots walking the streets of hong kong heading to the Agnes B flagship store ... with the wind blowing and scarf dancing in the wind... and me being loaded with cash... oh how i wish that would happen... oh well if only such dreams can come true...

oh i realise something when i go to hong kong i might have to learn how to text in cantonese .. so... does anyone know how to do that ? i need lessons... help?

Guess Where I'm Going?

2009-04-25T01:57:00.000-07:00

hey all

sorry for not updating i was sick hehe i had food poisoning and gastric... hehe... i ate something wrong ... i'm fine now :) oh well awyz something arrived in the mail yesterday ...

Hehe lookie lookie

So now you guys know :) i'll be leaving by mid august as my first lesson will be on the 1st of september.... Will be updating on the uni another time ... Need to finish other things first.... ;)

Ps : all hell broke loose yesterday... you know why?

Because the coffee machine dieded... :(

-natalie-

Se7en Joyful Things About The Recession...

2009-04-18T22:54:00.000-07:00

hello :)

The recession has caused a turnmoil in the many different sectors of our worlds economy. It has left many nations struggling to get out of it through numerous money schemes. Such as pumping more money into the economy which is a good thing but it might lead to an increase in inflation later on. Other than that, numerous people are now struggling daily to meet ends meet. However, despite the recession there are some things that we should take note as it might work to our advantage...

7 Happy Things Caused By The Economic Downturn

1. Homes

Since the housing market peaked in the year 2006 , home prices have tumbled 27% and some analysts say they'll fall 42% before they start to rebound. The S&P/Case-Shiller index shows prices were down 18.5% in December from a year earlier.

There are two pros here, depending on your situation: First, interest rates are very very low right now. Secondly, if you're liquid, meaning you have a lot of cash in your hands just lying around collecting dust it's a good time to buy for future a investment when the economy recovers. It is advisable to wait though because the prices are expected to drop further.

2. Tech Gadgets aka Electronics

Over the past few years the prices on electronics have been decreasing. The Consumer Price Index puts it in perspective: Computers cost 87% less in January than they did a decade ago, when you take into account upgrades in quality (such as processing power and memory). TVs were 79% cheaper.

For example, the average prices for computers were 12% less in January than they were a year ago; TV prices were down 21%. And the price index's numbers don't even reflect improvements and technological advances -- no small potatoes. So if you've been itching to update your tech gadgets stash now's a good time to do so. :)

3. Clothes

This is really good news for all shopoholics and people who love the four letter word 'Sale'. Those really really cheap clothing prices you've been seeing in department stores are for real. Prices for women's outerwear have decreased by 23% over the past 10 years and 12% over the past five years, according to the Consumer Price Index.

The decline is due partly to low-cost imports, but the more recent drops are likely tied to recessionary belt-tightening. Apparel prices in January were down 5% from a year earlier. A pair of Levi's 501 Original jeans cost about $50 (about $66 in today's dollars) in 1998; they were $46 in early 2009.

4. Cars

This is really really good news for those who need new wheels to get around in today's modern concrete jungle :) The Consumer Price Index shows that used car and truck prices have dropped about 17% over the past decade and were down 9% in January from a year earlier.

However with new cars the decline isn't as fast. The price of new vehicles dropped about 2.6% last year. But auto analysts in a recent JPMorgan survey noted that the average price of a new vehicle fell 2.3% in the second quarter of 2008, the largest single drop in the history of the 41-year survey.

5. Airfares

Travellers or does who want to travel have all the rights in the world to rejoice as airfares drop to an all time low due to the recession. It's called supply and demand, and the phenomenon doesn't bode well for airlines these days. The airline industry is in a tailspin, due first to high fuel prices and now to sagging ticket sales.

Ticket prices in January were down less than a percentage point from a year earlier, according to the Consumer Price Index, but some analysts are predicting a a bargains galore this year which might include bargains for flights abroad.

Travelocity reported in January that average domestic airfares for spring were down $24 year over year, to $369, with fares to Chicago down 17% and to Los Angeles, Salt Lake City and San Antonio down 16%. "Certain destinations have seen dips in price from time to time, but this is the first time in recent memory we're seeing declines across the board," said Genevieve Shaw Brown, Travelocity's senior editor. So if you are thinking about bringinh your loved ones somewhere nows the time .

6. Alternative Energy

With more and more people turning to earth friendly sources of energy its nice to know that the options for alternative sources of energy are also increasing. The cost of a solar photovoltaic residential system has dropped about 3.5% per year from 1998 to 2007, and declines in 2009 could be more dramatic.

First Solar, a thin-film solar cell manufacturer, broke below the $1-per-watt barrier in late 2008, creating electricity for 98 cents per watt. This is big news because it moves solar close to "grid parity" with other generators, meaning it could generate the buzz at the same rate as natural gas or coal. An oversupply of thin-film solar cells and silicon has led to a drop in prices which is very very good news for those who are looking to turn green to save planet earth.

7. Toys

The cost of having fun has decreased about 45% over the past decade, if you want to take the toys index of the Bureau of Labor Statistics as an indicator. Hasbro's Dream Life plug-in TV game, for example, costs $9.89 today, a cool 5 bucks less than it did in 2007. Sadly, this is only good news for the little ones and not very good for hardworking parents.

David Archuleta Live In Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

2009-04-13T04:21:00.000-07:00

Hello

Last saturday at 3.45pm like that my sister and i was busy enjoying a David Archuleta Concert in Sunway Amphitheatre... It was a hot day and the venue was outdoor too :) oh joy the heat of the malaysian sun .. but it was all worth it.. I met lyndy and karyan in the concert :) hehe The moment he came out i can feel my eardrums breaking as the decibels in the theatre was so freaking high... i can still remember shaun's expression whenever it got too loud...Eventhough he was out for a while and only performed 6 songs it was still worth it to catch him live for once :) btw he looks much taller and much much better looking in person ...

Oh yeah SPECIAL THANKS TO SHAUN FOR GETTING US VIP SEAT TICKETS... When the concert ended it started to rain again :) it was raining during the concert... See david archuleta can make our hot malaysian weather much cooler so that all his loyals fans who were waiting for him will stop sweating buckets...ok i'm just being lame ignore me... anyway i'll upload the shots and video from the concert another time... btw i'm still waiting for some photos from lyndy, kar yan, melly and shaun :) pls send to my email ok? thanks ya :)

ps : i miss david arcuhuleta already ...

-natalie-

If This Isn't Love - Jennifer Hudson

2009-04-10T06:31:00.000-07:00

hello

to be honest i'm very angry right now.. i have a lot of reasons but i'm not going to disclose the details here... So don't think of me of some angry hater kind of person ok? I'm now caught in the middle if i should go down to the south to sit for something that might make me look like a fool... eventhough i know that this oppurtunity which has been given to me is like a once in a lifetime oppurtunity but somehow or rather my heart is not in it...

i know that i should do this cause when...

'you've got one shot do not miss your chance to blow cause oppurtunity comes once in a lifetime'

but somehow or rather my heart is just not that.. i have to decide by this friday cause i have to inform the tribal council.. hopefully i'll decide soon cause its just around the corner...

Btw the song stated above reminds me of someone ... i bet you know who you are :)...

I’m calling his phone up
Just to tell him how muchI really love him ‘cause
His everything I want
He listens to me, he cares for me
So I truly believe

God sent me an angel
Up from above
That’s gonna love me for life
Might as well be perfect only because
It’s the only way I can describe, so
It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn’t loveL-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love
L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

I’m selfish ‘cause I don’t Wanna share him with nobody
Not even knows
People that came before me
But see, I never believed

God would send me an angel
Up from above
That’s gonna love me for life
Might as well be perfect only becauseI
t’s the only way I can describe, so

If this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
If this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn’t love
L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E,
oh if this isn’t love
L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh

The Last Few Days...

2009-04-08T06:22:00.000-07:00

hello

The last few days have got their share of ups and downs....

the downs

My internet dieded recently

I couldn't skype

Now also i still cannot skype cause someone used up their internet bandwidth

Work has been tiring due to the massive accumulation of my sleep debt... I now know why working people drink lots of coffee... and i now cannot survive without at least one cup of coffee everyday...

I've been running out of coins for coffee

and the list stops there hopefully... its still early ... thats the sad part... Now here are the UPS...

I finally got my pay which means i need my parents to top up a little bit more so that i can get a new mobile... can someone recommend? i want something sexy please to match with sexy me lol... x)

I got the david archuleta tickets... THANK YOU SHAUN

I'm finally going to eat the lychee tiramisu cake that i've been dying to try from eastin hotel...

I watched shopholic with my chi mui's and now i really really want a green scarf i just need to find where to get one... unless someone got it for me *hint hint* i love the show :) but i loved the company more :) *hugs

I finally got some good news in my life recently.. thank goodness...

[ 'I know that I've got issues but your pretty messed up too' ]
-kelly clarkson-

-natalie-

If You Step On My Toes...

2009-03-28T00:07:00.000-07:00

hello

If you step on my toes you better watch out I'll bite your head off...

Its been a month and the office is a mean concrete jungle. There is basically three types of people in the office...

a. The people who are extremely friendly but behind your back they are talking badly about you, creating all sort of rumours and trying to gang up against you. And in addition to that they will eventually step on your head...

then there's

b. The people who are just very cold and unsocial towards newcomers (meaning trainees like me) . They act like your inferior to them and making friends with you would be a waste of their time..

lastly,

c. there's the friendly people but don't talk to you at all... When you pass them in the hallway their smile ask how are you and then thats it...

Office politics itself is very dirty... Its somehow similar to what you see on the idiot box... And somehow i fell that this job of mind is going to teach me now how to handle all of this is the future :)... oh well... let's hope for the best...

at the end of the day in the office you cannot be too friendly if not people will step on your toes painfully....

-natalie-

Please Don't Stop The Rain - James Morrison

2009-03-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

And if it's going to be a rainy day
There's nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won't stop the rain

You're feeling like you've got no place to run
I can be your shelter til it's done
We can make this last forever
So please don't stop the rain
Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Please don't stop the rain
Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall
Please don't stop the rain

Hello

its been pretty emo lately for me... I can't speak mandarin and the issue has always been bitting me in the ass... especially now at work where most of my collogues speak in mandarin or cantonese .. Its like everywhere i go people would talk to me in mandaring and the thing is i understand what their saying but I would always reply them in english...

I'm trying to learn from my mum. She's been teaching me a few words now and then ... lets hope the rain will stop soon :).. oh well...

At least I have something to look forward to tomorrow.. hehe I'll be of to curve tomorrow for the bazaar and the cheer competition organized by CHARM ... I hope I have fun.. Got to go now...

-natalie-

Romantically Blissed

2009-03-14T08:30:00.000-07:00

Hello

"You are too generous to trifle with me. If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes are unchanged, but one word from you will silence me on this subject for ever."

-Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen -

I've always been a fan of the old romantic classics :) Movies such as Pride and Prejudice, The Duchess and so on have always made me imagined myself being born during those times and dancing in those fancy balls... And finding love at the end of the night ... I sometimes think I've been borned during the wrong time to a time where men who treat lady's with such manners are all extinct... I have met a few however most were just mere acts...

I'm a really traditional person when it comes to things like this .. I guessed it has been due to the reading and some contribution from Walt Disney himself...

Oh well maybe one day just one day such of my fantasies would come true or something... Eventhough the possibility is well near to zero. I can still dream :)

Oh another thing... I was in the airport quite recently sending someone dear to me and I saw something very dear to me... It is something that you could say would make me smile on the inside and the outside. Well I saw...

I saw a couple sending their eldest son off... The mother was crying but not bawling like crazy and the father saw . Instead of patting her on the shoulder like most of the male species would do (no offence but from what I've observed... ) . He took her into his arms hugged her tight and kissed her on the cheek looked into her eyes and smiled while saying 'He'll be back soon.." . He meaning their son... It was so sweet to see a couple who are not to say very young or very old but has had three kids and both who are constantly working 9-5 jobs and sometimes during the weekends... It was just so sweet and it was the only thing that made me smile for real while I was there... I stood there wondering in the corners of my mind whether I would be romantically blissed one day just like them....

-natalie

After Two Weeks

2009-03-13T08:20:00.000-07:00

Hey All

WOW how time flies when your caught up with work in the office from 9 - 5.45pm everyday :) Yes that's how long I work and I do it from monday to friday every week ... The food in the cafeteria at first was alright but then it started to get worst... Sometimes the food get too salty and too hot ... So yeah you know me and my tummy ...

But I look forward to lunch time all the time due to the fact that I get really hungry when i'm the office .... My body probably loses weight when I'm in the office due to the fact that it is so freaking cold... And my body will probably burn all my fats just to produce energy to keep me warm ... Ok I sound like a nerd or something I shall shut up...

Office politics is so dirty I tell you... People will take the smallest mistake and use it as your biggest disadvantage to bring you down. Just the other one of my collegues got scolded for slamming a bunch of papers on the table... so yeah... Not only is the politics dirty but office gossip is too ... Being new and all there has been some stuff said about me.. But I shall not disclose the details here...

Working is in a way fun if and only if you enjoy what your doing ... I for one find my work to be mentally draining due to the fact that my brain has not been working much since SAM ended and it is not suddenly exercising with digits from the 383 items in the building of which I work in... Oh well.. thank goodness my parents allow me to sleep in during the weekends... :)

Anyways I'm off... bye

-natalie-

Its The Freaking Weekend Baby !

2009-03-06T01:17:00.000-08:00

Hello

'It's the freaking weekend baby. I'm about to have me some fun'

Haha that's one of the lines to the music that was playing on the radio when i got home from work. hehe ... I'm so glad to be home after working for the entire week in checking stock and trying to figure out how to cut cost through inventory. It was really a behind the scene thing to how much food people can actually consume in an entire year. Entering the freezer was nerve wrecking because I was so afraid that I might get locked up inside by accident and become an Ice Queen or something . But none the less I'm doing fine.I enjoy working because it helps take my mind off things. It gives me something to do during my spare time too.

Its March now which means that the results for my application my University would be coming out in a month time or maybe possibly late March. I hope I get it. I just so want to get out of this house and move on with my life. Get my degree and hit the road in one of my dream places to go . Hong Kong ! before it sinks. Basically , I just want the whole drama through out my journey from last year doing SAM until today to come to an end. and yes there's a lot of drama I just never told anyone.

Coming to think of it most of the places of my I-want-to-visit list is sinking. That is so sad. Curse you Global Warming. Oh well I hope time will let me go to those places before they go under the water :)

Anyway I got to bounce yo before I start typing out everything that's playing in my mind. The mind is a complicating place isn't it?

'Life is simple, its just that we have a tendency to make it complicated at times '

-natalie-

Dear Life...

2009-03-03T02:44:00.000-08:00

Dear Life,

You drive me crazy

You make my head hurt

You make me wish that time would pass by faster so that i can go home from work

You make me feel stupid cause

I have to walk up and down from the office to get all the information I need

To write a good report and then once I've done that you make me pass it to my boss

Which my boss tells me that I've missed out a tiny detail while I was in the office listening to him

And then you make me realize once I went down to get the missing information that

He never told me to do that just now

So now dear life I am stuck and haunted by the fact that I have to figure out how to get all the information right...

What have I ever done to you?

2009 Academy Awards Best Dressed

2009-02-28T07:29:00.000-08:00

Hello

The 2009 Academy Awards red carpet is a runway showcasing the latest in fashion trends. As of now the trend if I'm not mistaken origami kind of like designs. Which in my opinion is very very glamorous because it shows the craftsmanship of the dress. Anyway here are my picks for Best Dressed... Enjoy...

Angelina Jolie

She's back. After wearing two tents to the last two award shows , she's back in a very very good way. She looks so elegant in this Elie Saab gown with the nice emerald jewels on her ear and hand. She looks like a Goddess . Its like she's standing telling us that her majesty has arrived. I like the corset of the dress . It fits perfectly. Nice pick on accessories. Might I say Brad Pitt looks good too xP

Penelope Cruz

Always a pleasure to watch on the red carpet. For this award she wore a vintage one of a kind dress. She looks like a princess. I like the lacey stuff on the gown. I like the hair and make up. What can i say about this fashionista and her latina bod.

Evan Rachel Wood

Another stunningly gorgeous Elie Saab creation. What I like about her look is that it gives me a very classic old timeless Hollywood kind of feel :) and I love that. This time the dress is definitely not wearing her and she is wearing the dress . She didn't over accessorize and that's a plus cause if she did it would have been a total failure instead of a total success . I love the colour on her skin it looks fresh and new and edgy for some reason . This was definitely one of my most favourite dresses of the evening. Can't you tell?

Tara P. Henson

This dress looks so nice but at the same time it looks like a scary mummy x) i think its because of the layers . But its still amazing. The tier after tier of organza and chiffon is genius. Thumbs up to Roberto Cavali who did an amazing job on this dress. However, I wish she used a different colour of a clutch.

Kate Winslet

In a stunning very modern, edgy and fashion forward gown. I love this girl she always plays with symmetry on the red carpet. Which is something by the way kind of bold in a fashion way cause most celebs would probably stick to those safe classic kind of silhouette's and all. However I would have prefered for her to wear something else because i have always pictured her as classic old hollywood. But none the less she looks beautiful in this gown and with the hair and make up as well.

Jennifer Aniston

I have no clue who designed her dress but it looks great. Don't you think so? Anyway she choose a very nice good looking gown which is good cause i mean who doesn't want too look good right? I love the lines on the dress cause it really gives shape and movement to the dress and the bodice of Jennifer Aniston. Her hair and skin looks flawless. Must be that vacation she had earlier with John Mayer . It must have been one heck of a vacation :)....

Anne Hathaway

One of my favourites to watch. I love the bunned up hair it, lets her show off her lovely shoulders and arms. I love that red lips of her it lets her features pop :)... I love the lines on a dress it adds life to the dress. I think i'm starting to see a line trend which I don't really mind at all. I like the piats on her dress simply shinning nicely on the dress . It makes her glow in a way.

Natalie Portman

Pretty in pink. This colour really stand out on the red carpet because it was rare . The only other celeb I know who wore the same colour was Alicia Keys. I love the flowyness in this dress. Love the classic elegances she was emitting when on the red carpet. I like the fact that Rodarte added those little gold things on the torso part of the dress instead of it being head to toe pink. It reminds me of the show pinky and the brain for some reason I don't know why. By the way, pinky and the brain was a cartoon about two rats that i used to watch last time.

Marisa Tomei

FINALLY ! Marisa Tomei has finally redeemed herself from the last two red carpet disaster's in this gorgeous Versace Ateliar . I like this origami trend going around. It really really shows how much effort it takes to make a gown and the creativity in its construction. Imagine how many people, hours and sweat it must have took to make this beautiful gown. Simply stunning however I wish it wasn't a one shoulder but still it realy is a work of art.

Amy Adams

This beautiful gown was designed by Carolina Herera for the Doubt's co-star Amy Adams. I love the lines on the dress . Like iI said before it gives shape To her figure. I love the necklace but i wished she didn't choose that necklace. Maybe a champgne coloured jewel or sparkling diamonds or a bare neck would have helped bring this dress to the next level. The colour of this dress is so rich and it looks amazing against her skin and hair. She just always looks great on the red carpet. Still loving her :)

Alright thats all for my picks on the Best Dressed for this year's Academy Awards. I hope you've enjoyed reading this post and do me a favour dear reader, and let me know which one of my picks was your favourite. Till then Adieu.

-natalie-

2009 Academy Awards Worst Dressed

2009-02-25T03:19:00.001-08:00

Hello

Last monday it was the 81st Annual Academy Awards... The Academy Awards is the mother of all awards and its red carpet is the best to watch . Due to the fact that this is the award where all of its attendee's go all out to look amazing :) ... However, not everyone can do such a good job and just like every red carpet event there are sure to be some who should have just call in sick.. Anyway here are my picks for the worst dressed ... enjoy...

Amanda Seyfried

What I don't like ? : Well the bottom of the dress... i don't know why i'm just not feeling it... and then there's the big red bow on the side of her waist which reminds me about the big red bows that you see on cars. Other than that, the ribbon and the dress reminds me about the black dress with the big black bow that Charlize Theron wore before which was disastrous... it looked liked she had another head next to her nice gorgeous looking one...

Jessica Biel

I just don't like the straight cut and that thing at her side... it just looks weird... it looks like she was using a napkin when she was eating and somehow she brushed the napkin to her sides and she forgot to take it out... sorry but seriously ... Jessica Biel could have done so much more better... In addition she choose the wrong shoe :(... It was a black cover toe pointy I think the material on the shoe was velvet it looked like velvet but i'm not sure... Among all the things why get the shoe wrong?

Beyonce Knowles

Sasha Fierce could have done so much more better... I don't like the black outline things on the side of her dress... I love the corset part of the dress though it looks different :) I love the print on the dress it looks really classy and elegant... But other than that not liking it...

Tilda Swinton

This Lanvin get up is a little too fashion forward. She's beautiful and all but the outfit just doesn't work for me. Maybe later on in my life I will understand this fashion genius. Either way this entire outfit is totally her. She has always done something like this. She works with the designer to create a look which looks like in the picture above. However, I'm still not getting it.

Miley Cyrus

Miley Miley Miley !!! Why oh Why ? The dress looks like its wearing you and not you wearing the dress... Its a little too much for your sexy , sweet and lovely personality. It makes you look old. I don't like the belt and that ribbon thing on the belt it just looks weird. But I'll tell you one thing I like the details your flower petal skirt . It must have taken a lot of time and sweat to create that lovely design on each petal. I'm sorry Miley I love you but its a little too much for you. I like the dress that you wore on one of the earlier awards shows I think it was to the Golden Globes :)...

Well there were other choices to choose cause there was rather a lot of wardrobe malfunctions like things that are not suppose to stick out sticking out but hehe... I didn't choose those ... so its ok ... Anyway tell me which one do you think is the worst out of my pick? leave a message in my cbox to let me know :) thanks ...

Next up the best dressed post ... There's so many pretty dresses that day :)...

-natalie-

I'm Not So Sore...

2009-02-23T05:42:00.000-08:00

I'm alright
I'm ok
I'm a little better...
Eventhough i miss you
And your two oceans away
i'll be smiling knowing that your alright :)
and taking a full advantage of your new experience

Where Science Meets Art...

2009-02-20T03:45:00.000-08:00

hello

Not too long ago, there was a Microscopic Photography Comepetion like thing and the results of the shots were amazingly beautiful... These truly awe-inspiring microscopic pictures of nature are so small that they are invisible to the human eye. This is what happens when art and science collide... enjoy :)

patterns on a thinning soap film
Picture: Dr. Tsutomu Seimiya, Tokyo Metropolitan University, photo courtesy of Nikon Small World

The sublime symmetry of a snowflake is revealed
Picture: Laurence Acland, Laurence Acland Photography, photo courtesy of Nikon Small World

I bet some of you are wondering how on earth do they do this well they use a technique known as photomicrography, where microscopes are linked to digital cameras, photographers are able to capture the beauty of the very small, like the wing scales of a moth

Picture: Charles Krebs, Charles Krebs Photography, photo courtesy of Nikon Small World

Convallaria majalis (Lily of the Valley) (1300x)
Picture: Albert Tousson, University of Alabama at Birmingham, photo courtesy of Nikon Small World

Cytoskeleton in growth factor stimulated human keratinocytes (100X) i bet biology students know what a cyctoskleton is for and what it is... :)

Picture: Dr. Torsten Wittmann University of California, photo courtesy of Nikon Small World

A chicken embryo... it looks like an alien wei ...
Picture: Tomas Pais de Azevedo, Faculdade Ciencias Universidade de Lisboa, photo courtesy of Nikon Small World

This is a Crystallised mixture of resorcinol, methylene blue, and sulphur (13x)

Picture: John Hart, Department of Atmospheric and Oceanic Sciences, University of Colorado, photo courtesy of Nikon Small World

Cluster of neurons differentiated from embryonic stem cells (40X)Confocal Picture: Dr. Sharona Even-Ram, Hadassah University Hospital, Jerusalem, photo courtesy of Nikon Small World

Its cool right? which ones your favourite ? tell me alright just leave a message on my cbox... thanks

I Dread...

2009-02-20T03:10:00.000-08:00

Truth be told...

I dread the nights after which you've gone to bed

with your eyes close and your ears deaf

because that is when i feel the most lonely

but i rejoice in the fact that the moon is out

and the sun is no more because

it means that i am one day less from seeing you again

in the month of November...

The 2009 BAFTA Film Awards

2009-02-18T07:14:00.000-08:00

i know this is long overdue sorry sorry i was busy spending time with my best friend who has recently left for sydney ... i now don't like looking at the sydney opera house i bet you know why.. i'm just weird oh well.. can't blame me... my brains just wired differently... hehe... anyway back to business *ahem

Just like the americans the britains on the other side of the pond to have an awards ceremony to celebrate good films and good actor and actresses :) its called the British Academy Film Awards... SO here are my picks for who did it right and for those who should have let me put this in a nice way get divorced with their stylist :) ...

Best Dressed

Kate Winslet

The beautiful and hour glass figure sure worked to her advantage in this dress. Its so symetrical thats what i like about it. The corset is different compared to other dresses. i just wished it was not black because lets face it black is a little boring a nice bright colour like the cobalt blue that she wore to the SAG Awards would have been nicer. Besides she's already worn black to the Golden Globes earlier on... hehe but overall she still looked nice and fine as usual....

British actor Dev Patel, left, and Indian actress Freida Pinto, right

For some reason they look good together but we cannot say that they acually have a romance off screen since both of them have denied any truth to that claim. Anyway lets talk about Freida's dress shall we? hehe... well i love it cause it highlights her body shape perfectly and the colour is so gentle and all girly. I like how the hair and make up looks and the fact that she did not over do the jewellery :) i like the necklace don't you?

Worst Dressed

Alesha Dixon

This British singer can sing well but the song is a little too much. There's too many gatherings... its all over the place and whats up with the gloves?

Marisa Tomei

This girl has yet to do any rights on the red carpet ... What she wore to the Golden Globes wasn't that bad but extremely out of place, the SAG awards not so bad just needed a blod lip and some blush ... but now its like she's wearing a pillow case or something but hey at least its a nice pillow case x)

There wasn't much style to watch due to the fact that i couldn't really find any pictures but hey at least i did something...

I went swimming with ethan and susan today ... we ate fries by the pool with mayo ... lol.. it was nice :) i had a great evening.. THANKS ETHAN AND SUSAN FOR COMING.... will be blogging soon... i have quite a few things in mind to blog about :) ...

anyway i;m listening to this song now... try to guess hwat it is... i bet lw knows... :)

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlit floor

Lift your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moon's sparkling

So kiss me

I Have Come To Realise...

2009-02-17T05:29:00.000-08:00

i have come to realise that i hate to see planes take off

i have come to realise that i wish Sydney was a lot more closer to home like how Singapore is close to Malaysia

i have come to realise that i haven't blogged about the Bafta's yet maybe I'll just go straight to the academy awards...

i have come to realise that the journey from kota damansara to KLIA is very very short...

i have come to realise that i can't listen to any love song without crying for now

i have come to realise that i can't go anywhere without remembering the good old times

i have come to realise that time would pass by very very fast hopefully

i have come to realise that I'm depressed

i have come to realise that i need to find something to distract myself like a job or something

i have come to realise that i just can't stop....

but overall i have come to realise that this is not the end but only the beginning...

as the days grow longer and as the season changes.. come what may I will still love you...

The 2009 Grammy Awards

2009-02-10T01:39:00.000-08:00

hello

We hear their songs on the radio and mtv all the time :) but the thing is can they dress to impress on the red carpet on musics biggest and oh-so-prestigious award ceremony.Once again here are my picks for best dressed and worst dressed for the 2009 Grammy Awards.. Enjoy...

BEST DRESSED

Kate Beckinsale

Actress Kate Beckinsale plays up her shape in this dramatic Reem Acra gown and Lorraine Schwartz jewels. its a lovely dress but however its a little too much drama going on at the bottom of the dress for the Grammy's...nevertheless she is still one of my picks for best dressed :)...

Sheryl Crow

Proving that dressing age-appropriate doesn’t have to mean looking boring, Sheryl Crow’s off-the-shoulder sky blue dress by Maticevski deserves a shout-out as one of the more fashionable and flattering outfits of the evening.

Kim Kardashian

Kim trying to look sophisticated instead of sexy... hmmm.. I like it for some reason theres just something about the dress that looks classy and yet hot :) This pleated minidress is by Maticevski.

Taylor Swift

The country star cutie gave red-carpet veterans a run for their money in this sophisticated jersey dress with black patent straps by Kaufman Franco. The 120-carat bracelet by Lorraine Schwartz also impressed. Simplicity is in fact beauty.

Katy Perry

Perry’s soft pink red-carpet dress by Basil Soda is one of the standouts of the evening. There's something very Marilyn Monroe about the outfit and hair and aura that she was emiting that evening. Don't you agree? however i wish i could say the same for the outfit that she wore while performing on stage but i'm afraid i can't. If your really curious to know... you can go and google it to find out...

Worst Dressed

Bai Ling

I'm confused is she wearing this dress upside down? Maybe the ribbon is suppose to take our eyes off the other parts of the dress... But i'm so confused... Only the big Guy up the sky knows what was going through her head when she was chose this dress for the Grammy's.

Paula Abdul

This is one hot futuristic mess of yellow chiffon and shards of metal. You know i think it'll look better without that gladiator armour like thing on her shoulder...

Estelle

A very very futuristic dress... Too much into the future perhaps Estelle is a member of the Jetson family X) .

Gwyneth Paltrow

Mrs. Chris Martin from Coldplay was probably attempting to dress like a rock-star wife in this shimmery Versace dress, opaque gray stockings and silver sandals, but something about the ensemble has more of a figure-skater feel. Nevertheless, it still does not work....

Paris Hilton

What can i say about this night gown opps i mean dress x)... She's such a pretty girl.. just wished she put her pants on or better yet don't wear it...

Double the Worst Dressed : M.I.A

While we applaud M.I.A. for attending the day her baby was due, both her globe-esque red-carpet getup and dotty onstage outfits already have us debating which one we’re going to copy for our next Halloween costume. I can't choose can you? I excuse the blue sport shoes because she had a bun in oven but i'm sorry i really really can't excuse the rest of the get up. Both outfits are just so horribily tremendously wrong...

Well that's my pick.. feel free to make a comment too :)... awyz the next fashion post will be about the BAFTA's its a british award... Until then bye bye

-natalie-

2009 Grammy Award Winners

2009-02-10T01:06:00.000-08:00

hello

This year is the 51st Grammy Awards one of music's biggest nights... This is one of the few award shows where i really pay attention to who wins and who doesn't x)... here's the 2009 Grammy Award Winners enjoy...

RECORD OF THE YEAR
"Please Read the Letter," Robert Plant and Alison Krauss

ALBUM OF THE YEAR
"Raising Sand," Robert Plant and Alison Krauss

BEST NEW ARTIST
Adele

SONG OF THE YEAR
"Viva La Vida" (Coldplay) Guy Berryman, Jonny Buckland, Will Champion & Chris Martin, songwriters

BEST FEMALE POP VOCAL PERFORMANCE
"Chasing Pavements," Adele

BEST MALE POP VOCAL PERFORMANCE
"Say," John Mayer

BEST POP PERFORMANCE BY A DUO OR GROUP WITH VOCALS
"Viva La Vida," Coldplay

POP COLLABORATION WITH VOCALS
"Rich Woman," Robert Plant and Alison Krauss

BEST POP VOCAL ALBUM
"Rockferry," Duffy

BEST TRADITIONAL POP VOCAL ALBUM
"Still Unforgettable," Natalie Cole

BEST SOLO ROCK VOCAL PERFORMANCE
"Gravity," John Mayer

BEST ROCK ALBUM
"Viva La Vida Or Death And All His Friends," Coldplay

BEST ROCK PERFORMANCE BY A DUO OR GROUP WITH VOCALS
"Sex On Fire," Kings Of Leon

BEST ALTERNATIVE MUSIC ALBUM
"In Rainbows," Radiohead

BEST FEMALE R&B VOCAL PERFORMANCE
"Superwoman," Alicia Keys

BEST MALE R&B VOCAL PERFORMANCES
"Miss Independent," Ne-Yo

BEST R&B PERFORMANCE BY A DUO OR GROUP WITH VOCALS
"Stay With Me (By The Sea)," Al Green Featuring John Legend

BEST R&B SONG
"Miss Independent," (Ne-Yo)M.S. Eriksen, T.E. Hermansen & S. Smith, songwriters

BEST R&B ALBUM
"Jennifer Hudson," Jennifer Hudson

BEST RAP / SUNG COLLABORATION
"American Boy," Estelle Featuring Kanye West

BEST FEMALE COUNTRY VOCAL PERFORMANCE
"Last Name," Carrie Underwood

BEST MALE COUNTRY VOCAL PERFORMANCE
"Letter To Me," Brad Paisley

BEST COUNTRY PERFORMANCE BY A DUO OR GROUP WITH VOCALS
Sugarland, "Stay"

BEST COUNTRY COLLABORATION WITH VOCALS
"Killing the Blues," Robert Plant & Alison Krauss

Should I Give Up or Should I Keep Chasing Pavements?

2009-02-08T00:56:00.000-08:00

there was a time when i was little
where you kept me safe in your bubble
with your watchful eye
you watched me grow into a butterfly
those days have passsed
as i have aged

i've learn to walk, fall and get back up
i also never had the best of hands
but i tried to play my cards right
i rolled the dice and payed my dues
and learned a thing or two

so don't you think its about time you let go?
why won't you ?
so should i give up asking you?
or should i just keep chasing pavements?

Just Wanted To Say That You Were Never Really There For Me...

2009-02-05T19:54:00.000-08:00

hello

i just want to say that i'm ok... took sometime to think about it then i brushed it off my shoulder... awyz how were your chinese new years? i bet you guys had loads of fun... care to share your story? i'm going to shen loong's house in an hours time so i'll have to get ready... wondering what i should wear... bye

Blessing Or Curse?

2009-02-01T03:27:00.000-08:00

hello

there are some people in life who get over things very easily because they choose to move on and not get held back . They just don't want to dwell in the past. But the thing is some people misunderstand them in very bad way . They would say things behind their back and everything and then when they see that person the halo's come out. Its hard to act like everything's alright with them when that person knows whats going to happen when that person's not around them. But what can they do when they have the ability to not dwell in the past for not long... is it another blessing and a curse just like love?

Wishing You Were Here Sweetheart...

2009-01-28T22:57:00.000-08:00

hello

As said in my earlier post i shall blog about my lunar new year :)... its nothing much really...

First Day

For the first day... i woke up late and i had to rush to get dressed and had the tea ceromony with my parents, grandma and my uncle. I have a very small family my dad is the eldest of the family and only has one younger brother who only has one son... so the ang's third generation in Malaysia only consists of Sherman, Natalie and Nicole. We don't really get visitors on the first day so normally, i would take my singaporean cousin to the cinema to catch a movie cause he'll be leaving the next day anyway... so this year we watched Underworld 3: Rise of the Lycans. Being a fan of the underworld saga i was excited... will write a review about it later on when i feel like writting...

So while waiting for my mum to fetch us from the mall we took some shots... hehe.. x) enjoy...

L-R: Sherman, Nicole and Natalie

Didn't you Know that we are very very serious people?

Doing something random

Second Day

For the second day, we had my mum's third sister's family come over for a visit but my cute little nieces and nephew didn't come :(... but its ok i then went to my mum's second brother's house to visit and i met them there... their so cute now... just look at them :)

6 month old Ariel giggling as we tickle her belly

Jeriel and Ariel

Well thats all for now :) hope your having an awesome day ...

-natalie-

The Screen Actors Guild Awards

2009-01-28T04:14:00.000-08:00

hello everyone

Last monday other than the fact that it was the lunar new year and australia's national day, it was also the day where all the hollywood stars came out all dressed up to attend the 15th annual Screen Actor Guild(SAG) awards. As usual I was watching to see what people wore and whether my fav fashionistas hit it out of the ball park or they needed to divorce their stylist x) so here's my pick on the top 7 best dressed for the SAG awards.

Anne Hathaway

The star of Bride Wars of wars did it once again. First at the Golden Globes and now again at the SAG Awards . Doesn't she look stunning? Wouldn't you agree with me that this Azzaro creation makes her look like a Grecian Goddess. Anne’s simple, stylish gown, drapes beautifully and the gold detailing adds to the luxury and glamour. White can be hard to pull off, especially on pale skins, but somehow Anne manages it perfectly. Furthermore, it looks effortless and natural.

Amy Adams

Is nominated for her role in the movie Doubt this year. However for me whenever i hesar her name or see her the movie Enchanted with the scene where she's dancing with Patrick Dempsey plays in my head and then i go why can't i be dancing with him... lol jk.. ok back to business... this eggplant colour dress goes well with her very pale skin and red locks. In case your wondering whats that thing on her waist well its a big bow i think. If it is well to be completely honest it goes very well with the dress its not too big or small that makes it look like the dress is wearing her and not she wearing the dress. Besides, bows are all the range now in the fashion world. In short i love the dress and her...

Claire Danes

This year the host of the SAG awards wore a nice sultry red dress. With the back sleeves of the dress slighty more on one side of the shoulder than the other. That sleeve alone was a breathe of fresh air from the usual one shoulder desgins that have been dominating red carpets on all the award shows.This red Nina Ricci silk number gives Claire’s tiny frame curves and the neckline is sublime.

Evan Rachel Woods

The star of the movie the Wrestler's gown was designed by Monique Lhuilier. This glamouress teal number reminds me of old hollywood timeless classics. It also continues the one shoulder trend and invokes the spirit of the Hollywood age. It shows that simple can be show stopping.

January Jones

Yet another Grecian Goddess look which is one of the looks that i love so much. why? Cause it looks elegant, timeless and feminine. This beautiful creation by Andrew Gn shows that with a little bit details at the right places and amount a black dress doesn't have to be boring. Mind you her hair looks perfect with the dress not too overdone and it looks fresh.

Kate Winslet

A beautiful blue cobalt number. This dress is assymetrical and it has that off shoulder but also on shoulder going on. Its a very bold colour for Kate as she normally wears paler tone sort of colours. But this bold colour really makes her pale skin and beautiful blonde hair stand out. Plus her fishtail Narciso Rodriguez gown compliments Kate’s curves whilst the royal blue is a fabulous and show stopping colour. On another note i'm so glad that Kate does not want to do Botox. :) She says that she won't do it cause it would take away her ability to act convincely.

Penelope Cruz

Azzedine Alaia always creates a great line, and this dress is beautifully cut. Love the new and different neckline. I think its metal. The train is gorgeous it suits her body too.

So thats my picks for my top 7 best dressed for the SAG Awards... so lets take a look at the misses shall we?

Laura Linney

Normally wearing something from Micheal Kors would be amazing cause he knows how to make stunning dresses but i don't know. there's just something weird about this dress that i can't put my finger on. tere's just something so wrong and weird about it. any ideas?

Eva Longaria

To be completely honest, i'm so dissapointed with what Eva wore. I thought she would have put together something as glamourous as she did like in the Golden Globes 2009 but oh well we're all humans and we all make mistakes i guess. A little bit too much ruffles here and there...

Nicolette Sheriden

I don't like the one sided sleeve thing... sorry...

America Ferrera

I'm sorry but i don't like the Vera Wang gown... i don't like the black things... and i wished she pulled her hair back. i think it would have looked nicer....

So those are my picks for those who dressed lovely and those who didn't. Remember this is only my opinion. I'm not saying that i can dress well or anything. Just doing this for fun. Feel free to say what you want to say in my cbox... The next event will be the Grammy's and the Orange British Academy Awards.

will be blogging about my Chinese New Year in the next post when i feel like writting it... Maybe tomorrow... Until then au revoir

-natalie-

Chinese New Year

2009-01-24T04:53:00.000-08:00

hello

the lunar new year is coming yay!!! its the year of the ox x) ... hehe according to my chinese horoscope its going to be a much better year than the year of the rat.. so i guess thats good news considering what i've been facing throughout the entire rat year. i had a lot of foot injuries, almost had to get admited into the hospital, was ill all the time, my stomach went haywire more than usual and lots more calamities... but on the bright side the year of the rat tighten my bonds with my sisters from another mother and father. brought me closer to my mum and sister and introduced me to a bunch of new friends (G11) and it gave me more chance to be independent in a way... if you know me then you'll know what i'm talking about ;) ...

Do you guys believe in chinese astrology? haha i know a lot of people who think its a bunch of crap but for i believe in it... for some reason i've been rather superstitius since i was a little natalie.... so here's what they predicted for the Horse people in the year 2009...

Your sign is Horse.

Things are looking up. Oxen admire your stamina and ability to undertake hard labor without a whimper or a whinge. This then should be a terrific year for Horses. No interference. No meddling in your business. No directives. However, Ox years are not brilliant for the Horse’s romantic life. You may indeed fall in love this year. And when you fall, you crash. Thunderously.
But this year, the more passion you throw at your chosen significant other, the less the person seems to want to cozy up to you. You can avoid being disappointed in love by simply leaving your hormones at the gate and running the race alone. Your professional picture bodes nothing but success. So long as you apply perpetual elbow grease and show persistence, the Ox will not only stay out of your way, but will applaud you, encourage you and when he can, recommend you highly to any influential people you may need to know in order to advance your career.

Health? Nothing serious or life threatening is visible on the surface. But you really ought to look after yourself better. Horses tend to think they are invincible and rarely, if ever, bother going to doctors or visiting other health practitioners. Avoiding the symptoms you have been living with now for far too long without a medical opinion or two could lead to a chronic illness (or worse) which will stay with you for at least the next dozen Chinese years.

My warning about possible illness is not meant to frighten you, but to keep you on track. You are not exactly what I would call "devil-may-care" about health. But you own the opinion that you are not only self-sufficient and disgustingly healthy, but more or less invincible. Hooray! Confidence of this type is all too scarce in today's world. But isn't it wise to remember that we are all expendable and that you, Horsey are no exception to the rule?

Basically, I don't know why I ever tell you Horse people to DO anything. You are doers by nature and you DO things all the time. Trouble only arises when someone else suggests you do something you don't want to do. You simply will not do anything you do not wish to do. Whatever you undertake, you do well and thoroughly. The way you work when you do work would put even the Ox to shame. But you do what you want, when you want to do it - and only when you feel like it.

Your love life may be static this year. You financial picture however picks up straightaway when the Chinese year begins. You will eventually make some extra money doing something you love to do. It may be teaching a skill or taking care of someone who is ill or consultant on a startup that's in trouble. But whatever it is, you like doing it and... as with the rest, you are excellent at what you love to do.

Meanwhile, as this year will tend to take up almost all of your time for work projects, make sure you take some time off to nurture your creativity. Paint, sew, cook, sing, dance or write poetry. Without a creative outlet, you tend to go a bit mad and start kicking holes in the stable walls. Use every spare moment to practice doing what you love most.

I don't know if what they say is true but hey its no harm to read for some it might even have some good laughs... anyways

Happy Chinese New Year Everyone !
May you have a very happy and prosperous year of the ox :)

Just Another Side

2009-01-22T07:19:00.000-08:00

hello

Lately its become a little hard for me to be suprised
When everythings been going on as if its all been written down
Its hard to think otherwise...

-natalie-